A Whole World Looks To See What We Will Do

Recently Danielle Muscato, a civil rights activist, public speaker and host of the #RESIST podcast tweeted this question:


The responses were heartbreaking and eye-opening.


As someone who presents as a white, heterosexual, cisgender male most of the time, I can honestly say that these, along with almost every response I read, were never anything I ever gave a second thought to.  In male mode, I am rarely, if ever, in fear of getting attacked when I go for a run or walk to my parked car.  This Twitter conversation is a reminder of my genetic privilege.

Men attacking women, whether it is verbal, emotional, sexual or violent has been happening for a very, very long time.  The #metoo movement has created awareness, and outrage, of how often this happens to more women than I ever imagined.  Of course I was, and am, horrified.  But women knew this.  They always did.

It’s important and necessary to listen to and believe the women.  I do not think women fabricate these stories for personal gain.

Yes?  You in the back?  You had a question?

“I think some women do make up the stories though.”

You can shut the hell up, thanks.

Over the past week, the entire nation was engaged with the recent testimony of Dr. Christine Blasey Ford as she painfully recalled and described a sexual assault when she was younger.  The president rewarded her courage by mocking her on national television.  His supporters laughed and cheered.  Dr. Ford and her family had their lives threatened.

Tell me again why you don’t think women come forward with their stories.

The president warned us that this is a very scary time for young men.  Men are not the victim here.  Men are not the ones looking over their shoulder when they pump gas.  Men being treated that they are the ones under attack is another example of their privilege.  What I mean is that many white men are used to everything being white men.  Black lives matter?  Let’s change that to ALL lives matter.  Yes all lives matter but the message of Black Lives Matter is about bringing attention to police killings of black people, and broader issues such as racial profiling, police brutality, and racial inequality in the United States criminal justice system.

Dr. Ford’s testimony, the stories of the #metoo movement, Black Lives Matter are all examples of how white, heterosexual, cisgender men have never had to fight to be believed, listened to, or respected.  My grandmother fought for the right to vote, my brother fought for the right to marry his husband.  These were rights that I never had to fight for.

I am thankful for these reminders and for the women sharing their stories.  I am awed and humbled, and in some cases, shamed by their courage.  Bringing awareness to a problem is how change happens.  In this case, the change will come by changing the behavior of men.

I didn’t know what it was like to be wary of being in public until I plucked up the courage years ago and left my house as Hannah.  For the first time in my life I was out in the real world presenting as someone other than a cisgender, heterosexual male.  The terror started immediately.  What if the person in the car next to me sees me and follows me?  Is there anyone in the parking ramp that could attack me?  Will people yell at me from their car as I walk down the street?

As Hannah, I am constantly looking over my shoulder, I am constantly on alert and aware of my surroundings.  I am constantly prepared to leave the area, the store, or wherever I am if I feel threatened or harassed.  However, when I leave the house presenting as male, I feel relaxed and I am no longer on guard.  Sure, I have had very few negative experiences in the real world as Hannah, but it only takes one act of violence to change my life forever.

My point is that when I am Hannah, I am in her world.  Her world is full of lipstick, cute dresses and too-high high heels.  Her world, as well as every trans and ciswoman’s world, is also filled with danger, misogyny, violence and harassment.  These horrible things go away from my life when I return to presenting as male.  But my wife, my sisters, my friends and all women do not have the privilege of this safety.

As a t-girl, I am aware of my responsibility to create a positive perception of the transgender community to the rest of the world when I am out in public.  I know I also have responsibilities as someone who also presents as male when it comes to the #metoo movement.  There needs to be change on a behavioral level as well as on a systematic level.

I am committed to being the best person I can be, no matter how I present.  The world has shown us what needs to change, what needs to happen.  We can all be leaders in this change.  At a minimum, we can be decent people.

A whole world looks to see what we will do. We cannot fail their trust, we cannot fail to try. 

-John F. Kennedy

Have a wonderful weekend.

Love, Hannah



X for Gender!

From MPR:

New driver’s licenses are giving Minnesotans a third option for gender designation.  Minnesotans can now put an “F” on their ID for female, an “M” for male, or an “X” for what officials are calling non-binary gender.

The agency said in a statement that the third gender option is in line with other self-reported descriptions, such as weight, height and eye color and allows it to better serve all Minnesotans. Federal regulation allows the change.

In an emailed statement Tuesday afternoon, state Sen. Scott Newman, R-Hutchinson, said the change was “made unilaterally by Democrats in the Dayton administration without legislative approval,” and he asked whether the change would negatively affect law enforcement.

Minnesota joins California, Washington state, Washington, D.C., Maine, Oregon and New York as jurisdictions that already or will soon offer the driver’s license option for residents.

Love, Hannah