I was wondering if you ever came across a person that struggled with their CD life and something that is very personal to people and their faith. I am a person that has struggled with this conflict within myself. I deeply desire to live as a CD and maybe even Trans, but I also have this faith that I have grown up with that tells me that what I am doing is wrong. Have you talked with anyone else with problems like this?
I was raised Catholic and up until I was in my final days of high school I spent every Sunday in church. I was told how EVERYTHING you did, thought, and said mattered to God. Everything was being used to determine whether or not I would go to heaven or, uh, somewhere else when I died. If everything I did was noticed, then I’m sure God saw me trying on my sister’s clothes and knew I was longing at the dresses I saw girls wore. I’m sure what I was wearing (or wanting to wear) would be considered when it came to my afterlife. Of course confession is used to absolve those “sins” but I certainly was not going to tell the priest about what I tried on in secret.
God created the heavens and the earth and everything in the universe, we were told. God loves us. These were some of the things we were taught every single day growing up. It’s natural to question one’s faith, and for me I wondered if God was as powerful and as loving as we were told, did it really matter that I wore panties? Did God REALLY care? And if this was “wrong”, why was it wrong? Did the Bible say it was? I mean, they are just clothes, for heaven’s sake. My relationship with God has nothing to do with religion. I don’t base any of my life on what the Bible or the Vatican or whatever says.
Religion, faith, gender… these are all very personal things and you shouldn’t let anyone tell you what is right and what is wrong (even me).
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