Hi! I have a new article for Pillow Talk, a series I am doing with Xdress!
When I quit drinking in 2016, I simply stopped.
I was lucky. It took years to work up the courage to stop, but once I made the decision, I rarely looked back.
Stopping something doesn’t mean it was, and will always be as simple as that. I still think about wine. When my wife pours a glass at dinner I sometimes will be tempted, or rather I will remember the taste of it, usually brought on by the scent.
My point is that stopping something is a commitment. It’s not as simple as making the decision once and that’s that. Staying sober is a daily decision, often made multiple times throughout the day.
This week’s Pillow Talk is something like this. I have, for the most part, stopped comparing myself to others as well as stopped comparing myself to, well, myself. I am older than ever and my body is changing. Do I look as good, as femme, as I did five years ago? Mm, probably not.
Does it discourage me? Does it frustrate me? Does it get to me? Of course.
But not always, and not for very long.
Stopping comparing yourself to anyone IS a decision. And once you make it, you will probably be happier. But, like staying sober, it’s not always easy. I think I will always be subject to feeling inadequate or old or fat or ugly or masculine or jealous when I look at others. I will never be bulletproof to these feelings. But I think I am better equipped to dispelling these moments than I ever was.
Love, Hannah
Hannah McKnight 
I love thought of not comparing yourself to others. Believe me, any time I look at one of my pics, I see all the flaws, all the blemishes, everything that I think makes me look not femme, old, overweight, whatever. Its sometimes easy to focus on the negative. Very simply, there will always be bad things to find, there will always be flaws. The hard part is to look past those and see what you like. See what makes you look good and see your own beauty.
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