Photo Shoot – Yellow Dress

If someone at work were to compliment a tie I was wearing, I would say thank you.  If they asked when or where I bought it, I would likely have to think about it and probably wouldn’t remember.

But the other side of my closet is different.  Every dress has a story and I remember each one.

Besides trying it on at the shop when I bought it, this was the first time I wore this cute little dress.  As soon as I put it on, I knew I would wear it for a future photo shoot.  It’s cute, it pairs really nicely with my white heels, it’s short and shows off my legs.

I hope you love this dress as much as I do!

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Love, Hannah

Serving Glamour!

We all know the difficulty of finding clothes that fit our bodies.  A size 14 is not always a size 14.  Often times a dress fits perfectly around our hips but our shoulders are a different story.  I am always excited when I see a new company or designer making clothes for our bodies.  Not only does this give us another option, but it’s encouraging to see others supporting girls like us.

We can add Serving Glamour to the growing list of designers making clothes for us.

Serving Glamour provides access to modest and modern clothing and accessories specifically designed and chosen for transgender women and their unique body shapes so they feel fashionable and feminine in any social or professional situation.

Serving Glamour is owned and operated by Jennifer Walter BA, the wife of a transgender female mechanical engineer.  As a member of Tempe Fashion and Business Resource Innovation Center (FABRIC), Jennifer is working closely with local experts in fashion design and manufacturing to guarantee that Serving Glamour fashions and accessories are of the highest quality.

Serving Glamour sells shoes, clothing, accessories, and purses.  I had the honor of trying Jennifer’s custom wrap dress and I modeled it for my most recent photo shoot.  The dress feels silky and sensual, and I loved the sparkly pattern.

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The dress is flattering and I love the neckline.  It comes at a perfect angle and it shows off just enough cleavage. The skirt is also cut in a way to show off my legs when I want to, and I always like to show off my legs.

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The dress is sexy and flirty, and perfect for date night… and for Sunday brunch.

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I hope you like Jennifer’s dress as much as I do.  Please support her by signing up for her mailing list.

Thank you to Jennifer for the dress, and for giving girls like us another option for our wardrobes.

Love, Hannah

Drawing the Line

I noticed Too Faced cosmetics was trending on Twitter the other day and I was curious why.  I like Too Faced, actually.  In fact, the MN T-Girls did a makeup demonstration at Ulta a few years back and Too Faced sent over a few of their regional trainers to give makeovers, help us shop for products, and to demonstrate different techniques.

I assumed Too Faced was trending because of a new eyeshadow palette or something similar buuuuuut it wasn’t.  Basically the sister of the co-founder of Too Faced made some comments about a makeup artist who recently came out as transgender.  This caused, to say the least, backlash against Too Faced.

Whether or not someone you feel that Too Faced deserves the backlash based on what the co-founder’s family member said (God knows I don’t endorse or agree with everything my family members say), it made me think about the importance of supporting organizations that support our community.  Specifically I am thinking about the way we are viewed not only by the corporation itself, but by the employees who work for them.

Case in point, Target.  Target came out a few years ago saying that their guests should use the restrooms and changing rooms that match their gender identity.  This caused some boycotts which likely affected their business.  I’m sure Target was aware of what this stance would cause, but they did it anyway.  Risking profits by making this their policy says to me that they really do support us.

I shop at Target in both male mode and en femme.  When I am there en femme I have always had a positive experience.  I feel welcome there by the employees and I feel welcomed there by the corporation, based on their policy.

Of course, not every corporation is like Target.  I was disappointed to hear a CEO from Victoria’s Secret make some disparaging comments about our community.  I was even more disappointed by the company’s response to what was said.  I had been shopping at Victoria’s Secret for years as both genders.  In male mode I was mostly ignored (thankfully), but Hannah was always welcomed there.  I made the decision to stop shopping there, but in doing so I discovered so many other options for my lingerie from companies that truly do support our us.

If we want more businesses to support our community, then our community must support the ones that already do.

I don’t frequent businesses that have beliefs or a corporate culture that don’t align with my own morals and values.  It does make it a little different when the experience is positive at a store level (such as shopping at a Victoria’s Secret store) but is very different from a company culture perspective.  I missed shopping there (until I tried other options), but I couldn’t bring myself to spend money where they employed a CEO that didn’t think a transwoman should be allowed to model for them.

Of course, I am not so naive to think that it’s possible to live a life where you never interact or have to deal with people who you disagree with.  I am related to people who prefer to live in a world where the LGBTQ+ community doesn’t exist, after all.  I would like them to change, but I know they likely won’t.  I would like for all organizations to be welcoming and supportive of our community, but it’s not realistic.  However, I believe you can voice your opinion with your purse more than you can with your tweets.

I often wonder where I should draw the line.  I wonder if I am a hypocrite in some ways.  Yes, I won’t eat Chick-fil-A but how well do I know the values of the owner of the coffee shop that I go to?  Should I toss out my Harry Potter books?  Do I need to google every organization that I interact with?

I try to live a highly principled life but I often wonder where I should be drawing the line.

Love, Hannah

 

Drag out the Vote

Drag out the Vote is coming to Minneapolis!

  • The Muse Event Center

Drag Out The Vote is partnering with @phiphiohara’s #QueensUnited & @flipphoneevents to raise money and to register voters in 2020 and get them to the polls!

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Featuring @TheGingerMinj, @monetxchange, @lee_fontaine, @jaidynnfierce, @misssherryvine, @thewendyho, @mercedesimandiamond, @martigcummings and more!

Tickets available at FlipPhoneEvents.com

What is Drag Out  The Vote?

 

Drag Out The Vote™ is a non-partisan organization that works with drag performers to promote participation in democracy. We register voters at drag events across the country. We organize drag queen-led get-out-the-vote (GOTV) activities during election cycles. Our first campaign is #DragOutTheVote2020 to register voters and get them out the polls for the November 2020 election.

Drag queens have been fighting on the front lines since the beginning of the LGBTQ rights movement. Even now, many continue to use their prominent community status to champion equality. We are looking for queens from all over the U.S. to join our movement and bring more voters — no matter their gender, race, sexuality or age — to the polls. Queens, join us here.

LGBTQ rights and women’s reproductive rights are under attack and Congress is doing little to battle climate change. It has never been more important to get registered, vote, and make your voice heard. If you want to be the first to know about our drag events and activities, join us here. Learn more about about how to get registered here.

Love, Hannah

Specialized Clinics for Transgender Youth

From Public News Service:

A recent study found more U.S. teens are identifying as transgender or gender nonconforming. Health-care providers are taking notice by opening clinics that provide specialized care for these youths.

That includes a facility that recently opened in Minneapolis. It’s run by the Children’s Minnesota health system. Dr. Angela Goepferd is the medical director for the program. She said kids who fall into this group face health disparities, and their parents often lack resources when seeking guidance.

“Families often don’t know where to go or who to turn to with those questions,” Goepferd said. “And even when they do find themselves in their pediatrician or family-practice doctor’s office, there’s often still questions.”

Goepferd said kids might need to see a consultant about how they want to identify, or they might seek gender-affirming hormone treatment. She said finding the right medical expert could take several months.

Children’s Minnesota said its new clinic is one of only about a dozen of its kind in the nation

More here!

Love, Hannah

My Name is Hannah and I am a ________

I knew I couldn’t be the only one.

Growing up, I used every opportunity I could to try on a dress, a skirt or heels.  As I got older, more opportunities presented itself, especially when I had a part-time job and a driver’s license.  The freedom and the thrill and the fear of being able to go to any department of any store any time I wanted was a new world to me.

Even now when I look at dresses at a store or shop for makeup in male mode, I always wonder how I look to people around me.  I don’t care, but I still wonder.  Do others think I am shopping for my wife or myself?  Again, I don’t care what they think and truly I will never know, but still I wonder.

What I do know for sure is that I am not the first or the last male presenting person that is shopping for a new skirt or choosing a new lipstick color.

But when I was younger, despite being sure I wasn’t the only one like me, I couldn’t imagine anyone else in my life wearing what I dreamed of wearing.  I couldn’t form the words to describe who I as, or why I liked to wear what I liked to wear.  It was too complex and too simple at the same time.  People generally don’t have to explain why they like pizza or going on a bike ride because… well, why would they need to?  My thinking was (and to a certain extent still is) why do I need to explain why I wanted to wear a cute pair of panties instead of boring, ugly, and uncomfortable boxer shorts?

Of course that thinking was, and is, very naive.  It’s frustrating to be something, to want something, and to be so misunderstood once people know all of us.  It takes FOREVER to come out.  Unless the person we come out to shuts down the conversation very quickly, this revelation can begin a conversation that can span hours, weeks, or even years.  We are multi-faceted and straightforward at the same.  Why do I like to wear eyeliner or lingerie or heels?  I just do.

But that explanation is typically not enough.  Is there some confusion or denial about our gender or sexual identity?  Did we have a bad relationship with our parents?  Are we perverts?

Do you see what I mean when I say that coming out is exhausting?

I was never confused about who I was.  But growing up I wanted to know WHAT I was.  I didn’t feel like a boy.  I didn’t want to be a girl.  The world changed in fifth grade when a friend said the word CROSSDRESSER.  I asked what that meant and she simply said it was a boy that liked to wear girls clothes.

To find out there was a word for what I was, for who I was, was earth shattering.  It was proof that I wasn’t the only one.  Not only was I not alone, but there were so many of us that there was a word for us.  I was a crossdresser.

Learning this word was so shocking that I almost unintentionally came out at that moment.  For the next few years I felt less alone, I felt… normalized, in a way knowing that what I was had a name.  If I wanted to come out, I would come out as a crossdresser.  There was a word for who I was, and hopefully people would know what it meant.

But it wasn’t long until I learned that having a word for those like me didn’t necessarily mean that things would be easier.  In fact, the word seemed to work against me.

When I started college, access to the internet was still a relatively new thing.  On my first day of college, I went to the library and searched the word ‘crossdresser’.  I was interested in knowing about others like me, to talk with them, to be assured I really wasn’t the only one.  Perhaps there was some insight as to what all of… this meant.

The search provided countless websites and images and the vast majority of them were sexual in nature.  They leaned heavy on the idea that crossdressing was a fetish which was surprising to me, to say the least.  This was not a kink.  At all.  I was dispirited to see that the word crossdresser was represented so overwhelmingly in this manner.

So, the word that I had sought for so long, and the word I labeled myself as for so long, no longer felt right.  Over time I learned that although this side of me is absolutely a fetish for some, it isn’t for all of us.  There were others like me, there are others like me, and there will always be others like me.  But at this time I felt just as alone as I did before.  Yes, there were others like me who loved wearing lingerie, but the reason for it was completely different why I loved it.  My search for a more appropriate word began again.

Fast forward a couple years and I see the word ‘transgender’ for the first time.  The word literally translates into ‘across/beyond gender’ and I thought this was perfect for me.  Having felt that I wasn’t either a boy or a girl, but being beyond the concept of gender seemed right.  Like crossdresser, however, the word at the time was generally defined as someone who has transitioned into a different gender than the one they were assigned to at birth.  As someone who had no desire to permanently live and present as one gender for the rest of my life, transitioning was not something I felt I needed, or wanted to do.

So, another word was out.

Why was this so important to me?  I so wanted a word that described who I was that everyone understood.  When my brother came out as gay, everyone knew what that meant.  If I came out as a crossdresser or as transgender, especially then, I would not be understood.  I knew I was complex, and I had hoped for a word that explained who I was simply and effectively.

These days if the topic came up, I would identify as transgender… but that still requires a lot of qualifying.  Yes, I am trans, but here’s what that means and what that doesn’t mean to me.  I like having a word such as this that everyone has heard and most people have a little familiarity of, but since this word can mean something different to every non-binary person out there, it almost always still requires a lengthy talk.

For people who are more familiar with gender identity beyond the binary, I could also use the terms ‘gender fluid’ or ‘gender non-conforming’ as well.

Still.  These terms also require some explanation.  Not only what these terms generally mean, but also what they mean to me.  It’s important to me that I am understood by those who are important to me.

There are many terms in our community.  In some ways this is wonderful.  To have so many variations of gender identity and gender concepts and gender presentation is a sign of progress and a slow progression to acceptance and understanding.  In other ways this is also frustrating as there is rarely a term that conveys precisely who we are.  For some the word crossdresser fits as perfectly as a stiletto.  For some drag is absolutely what they do.  For myself there are many words I can and could use, but nothing that really encompasses who I am completely.  I find myself asking if having so many terms is helpful or if it works against us.

What do think?

Love, Hannah