In my male life, I tend to be a bit of a workaholic. Even on my days off, I plan projects and errands and things that I need to accomplish. I have a hard time relaxing. One of my favorite things about having two genders is that Hannah is very different than my male life. I had quite a few errands planned for yesterday but it was a beautiful morning and I felt like being as beautiful as the day.
I woke up, picked out one of my favorite floral dresses and nude heels and left my house in search of adventure. I ended up at the Mall of America. I think for many of us in Minnesota we look visiting this mall as a challenge. It’s huge, has a ton on people and can be intimidating. I’ve been to the mall as Hannah before and was excited to return.
I arrived at the mall before most stores had opened and enjoyed listening to the click of my heels on the floor as I wandered around having a coffee. I caught the eye of other shoppers and I did what I always do when someone looks at me, I smiled at them. And more often than not, they smiled back.
A smile can disarm, a smile can put someone at ease and smiling back when someone smiles at us is a reflex. There was one lady in particular who just…stared at me and I just kept smiling. I thought about what she would tell her friends later.
“I saw one of those…transgendered people at the mall.”
“What happened?”
“She…smiled at me”.
Yes, we are pretty scary.
As I strolled through the mall, I heard someone say “oh, will you look at the model!” I turned and saw a couple sitting on a bench waiting for a store to open. I sat down with them and had a wonderful conversation with them. They were a retired couple from Norway who were in town to meet their daughter who was flying into Minneapolis from Alaska. We had about a 20 minute chat and my heart grew with happiness.
I stopped in a lot of stores and tried on dresses looking for a new outfit. I also took advantage of all the giant mirrors.
I had so much fun. After my recent post I was inspired to try on a few gowns as well. Look at this dress, could you imagine wearing it at ball?
I had a wonderful adventure at the mall. I look at my time as Hannah truly as adventures. I never know what will happen. Maybe I will find the perfect dress or talk to a retired pastor from Norway. What I do know is that people are generally very kind and they might look at you as they have never seen a transperson before…and it’s possible they haven’t.
It’s impossible and a waste of time trying to determine what people are thinking when they see you. Regardless of what they think, it can’t affect you. How you think about yourself is the only thing that matters. If someone does stare at me, I like to imagine they are thinking “wow, she’s tall” or “what a beautiful dress!” and “how does she walk in those heels?”.
People will stare, but mostly they just smile back.
Love, Hannah
Last night was the monthly outing for the MN T-Girls and like each month, it was filled with girl talk, making new friends and support. We’ve had a busy 2017 so far with going out to dinner, shopping, makeup demonstrations and other exciting events so I thought it was a good time to have a quiet evening at Blue Moon Coffee Cafe in Minneapolis. The weather was rainy and gloomy which helped add to the perfect conditions for spending time drinking tea and coffee with friends.
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Last night I had the honor and pleasure of meeting Corrie, a superstar in the Twin Cities trans community. I’ve been hearing about Corrie and her business 
