No matter how lousy life can be, there’s always a certain energy that Friday brings. Each week is pretty exhausting and I don’t know about you, but by the end of the week my capacity to give a damn is usually pretty limited.
And that apathy can carry over to other aspects of our lives as well.
I mentioned the other day how lingerie (lol, it ALWAYS comes backs to lingerie for me, doesn’t it?) can make me feel kinda too masculine, too fat, too… well, not qualified to post pictures of me wearing pretty clothes.
Well, I call them panties. Marketing “lingerie for men” can be tricky I suppose as Moot describes this as a reinvented boxer.
But girl, they are panties.
Posting lingerie pictures takes a lot of courage and nerve as, well, you’re about as naked as possible without being naked. Showing that much skin is terrifying. But even with lingerie you can cover up a little. I am self conscience of my body and I feel my midsection is a little unflattering. I could stand to lose some weight. I also have a very rectangular shape. Wearing a corset, even in lingerie shots, can help create a more shapely appearance but can also cover up a lot of skin.
But for these pictures, it was just a bra, panties, stockings, and whatever God gave me.
Hi! How was your weekend? Mine was exhausting. I’ve been working on a project for work over the last eleven months now and it should finally wrap up today. All of the difficult parts are finished, including a work trip last week. This was one of the biggest things I’ve ever done in terms of my career and it was mentally and emotionally and physically taxing.
But now it’s done.
And I think now that I am not running a million miles an hour things are catching up with me. This weekend was a rare weekend when I didn’t have a lot planned. It was nice because every Saturday in September has something going on, including shooting more videos for ‘Help Me Hannah!’ and the monthly MN T-Girls event.
I tried to carry on this weekend and tried to be productive but it was strange. Usually I can find the energy to do… stuff, whether it’s yardwork or reading a book but I felt like it took every ounce of me to do anything. I am not used to limits, lol.
And this all sounds very arrogant but I tend to be fueled by momentum, if that makes sense. I decide to do something and once my mind is made up I rarely get distracted and I get whatever thing I have planned finished.
But goodness this weekend was different. I feel asleep everywhere, lol. On the couch, at my desk, sitting in a chair reading, even donating blood.
I’m getting older, as we all are. I am almost fifty (omg) and I have to start slowing down sometime. I think aging will be very difficult for me.
But I will never be as young as I am ever now ever again so let’s try to live in the moment.
Anyway.
Today I am posting the second set of pictures from my most recent photo shoot. I am wearing lingerie from Moot buuuuuut I had to pair it with a bra.
Here’s what it looks like:
This is perfect for the cisgender male body and I know I have a cisgender male body BUT this doesn’t work for me when I am en femme.
Here are my three favorite shots of this set. I hope you like them!
I am fairly well organized (but please don’t look in my closet as it is a MESS). I kind of have to be. I have a zillion folders on my laptop and I usually know where a certain photo or email or whatever is. This is true whether it is work-related, a legal document, or Hannah’s life.
In my work life as well as in Hannah’s world, I have folders labeled “various” which are more or less a graveyard for things that don’t really fall into any category but I know I need to keep for whatever reason. I rarely reopen these folders but when I do I find pictures or other things I had completely forgotten about.
Case in point, two weekends ago.
Unless this is your first time visiting my website, you probably know I heart lingerie. My infatuation ranges from simple pink cotton panties with a matching camisole to elaborate corsets. I suspect many of you share this adoration.
One of the more lively discussions our community has is “boy panties” vs “girl panties”. What I mean is a cute panty but designed for a specific anatomy. For example, “girl panties” are found at Victoria’s Secret, “boy panties” are found at Xdress or other designers.
For the purpose of this little discussion, I am gently setting tucking panties/gaffs aside.
Girl panties are not designed with room for a penis or testicles, but boy panties are. Boy panties tend to have a wider gusset or larger leg holes.
I have a lot of panties. Like, a LOT. Some fit better than others, regardless of the genitalia they were designed for. Some panties looooked so cute at the shop or online but goodness they simply don’t fit.
I like certain panties for different reasons but they simply need to fit. I hate falling out of a panty or wearing one that is soooo, ah, roomy, that I may as well be wearing boxers.
Some of us hate boy panties because, well, they kind of miss the point. And I get that. However, I appreciate a cute pair of panties that are designed with a little more fabric to keep everything where it belongs.
One thing I do hate about boy panties is the extra room in the pouch. I appreciate the wider gusset but I like my panties to smooooooth out the front. A bulge is going to be there, which is fine, but I don’t want so much room that everything just… hangs there. There’s a difference between a subtle bulge and, well, LOOK AT MY PENIS.
Cute, satin-y, and lace! And they smoooooth out everything. Love these panties.
When I feel the itch to add to my panty drawer(s), I sometimes feel the choice comes down to price. For around $30 I can get five panties from Victoria’s Secret or, well, one “boy panty”. I love having a lot of panties and I have gotten quite good at determining which “girl panties” will fit but sometimes I’m wrong.
I totally understand why Xdress and other designers have the prices they do. It’s hard to be competitive at a price point when you are a small business catering to a niche demographic compared to a giant corporation with a brand that is known around the world. I happily wear panties from Glamour Boutique, Moot, The Breast Form Store, Xdress, HommeMystere, and En Femme.
Anyway, back to that ‘various folder’.
As someone who wears panties all the time and as someone who thinks about panties all the time, it’s not surprising that I’ve fantasized about the perfect panty. Essentially this would be a girl panty with a slightly wider gusset. That’s it. No extra room in the front, just a little more fabric between the legs to keep everything in place.
As I mentioned earlier I love a cute matching panty/cami set. If I was going to design a panty I would obviously need a cami to go with it. I like camis because I can sleep in them and I can wear them under boy clothes without the risk that a bra has.
I make no attempt to hide that I am transgender. I celebrate it, I acknowledge it. As I daydreamed about designing lingerie I was inspired by some of my panties that have words on them. “GIRL POWER” or “LOVE” stamped on the back. I thought it would be fun to have expressions that mean something to girls like us on them. “PINK FOG” or “GIRL MODE”, for example. This terms don’t mean anything to most people but we all know what these phrases mean.
Over the years I got to know the lovely people at HommeMystere and was sad to learn that they have called it a day. A few years ago we talked briefly (lol, briefly) about working together and I proposed an idea about a small lingerie line that featured everyday cotton or satin panties with phrases that mean something to us. Something fun and playful and cute.
The idea never really went anywhere but I used some of the images on their website and edited them a bit to illustrate what I was thinking. These are the files that I rediscovered in one of the ‘various’ folders that are sprinkled across my laptop.
I still love this idea and I would still love to see it become a reality. So, if anyone out there is looking to partner with me, drop me a line, lol. 😉
Although I don’t shop at Victoria’s Secret anymore, I still have a lot of panties from them that I wear. The quality is, well, fine, I suppose. Although they are cute I don’t expect tooooo much out of panties that are sometimes 10 pairs for $30 or whatever. When I compare them to panties and lingerie I get from say, Allure, then the difference in quality becomes more noticeable. There’s also a quality difference between a $50 corset and my Glamorous Corset. Before I owned my current corset I thought they were, well, overrated. I didn’t see the (practical) benefit from wearing one. And yes, as sexy as they are, there is a practical side to a corset. But my corset from Glamorous Corset? Oh my goodness. Quality and sexiness.
My point is that, for the most part, you get what you pay for when it comes to lingerie (and makeup). Although my purse would prefer I purchase a $5 pair of panties from Target, my body appreciates the panties that I spent $30 on. Again, crossdressing takes patience, time, and money. I feel that there is a benefit in investing in this side of me.
When I first heard about Moot, I fell in love with their designs. Moot is a newish lingerie designer for crossdressers and girls like us. Their designs not only fit someone like us, but their designs are, in my opinion, what I want in my lingerie and panty drawer… what I mean is their lingerie is super cute and super feminine. I loved their designs but I was taken aback by the price. Moot isn’t Victoria’s Secret when it comes to price.
To their credit, Moot acknowledges that. They pride themselves on quality and after being sent some items to review, I have to say that they’re right. Moot lingerie is super cute, and the quality is on another level.
Each item is handmade in England using materials that are ethically sourced. I know this doesn’t matter to everyone but, well, it matters to me. As I get older I make more of an effort to shop local, buy from independent businesses, and eat at non-chain restaurants. Moot aligns with my values perfectly.
But the lingerie… how is it? The quality is the first thing I noticed. The panties I was sent to review didn’t feel or look cheap. They felt luxurious. A perfect combination of lace and mesh and small details. One pair (The Quentin) is sexy and comfortable (which is what I want from lingerie).
The front holds my feminine flaw perfectly and the cut open detail in the back is alluring and flirty.
My favorite pair is the Floral Brief. This is transparent lace and the back is, well, tiny, but it fits like a dream. Both panties are welcome additions to my lingerie drawer(s). I suppose at this point I need a lingerie closet.
Moot isn’t cheap, and they pride themselves on not being cheap. Their pride is well deserved and the quality is truly second to none. Moot is what I want to find when it comes to my lingerie… ethically sourced, handmade, feminine, comfortable, and sexy.
Thank you to Moot for providing these panties. I heart them.
Hannah McKnight 