They’re Not Real, and They’re Spectacular

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Okay, this is my last post about my most recent photo shoot (just in time because I have another one in a few weeks).  

This was an emotional shoot and I dipped my stiletto into new waters which was nerve-wracking and empowering and humbling all at the same time.  I was all over the map when it came to these photos but the thing that the photos, the outfits all had in common was my new shape. 
 
No, not that shape, but my new breast forms.  

For the past few years I wore a small pair of forms that weren’t REALLY breast forms, but more along the lines of faux-silicone pads that did a sufficient job of giving me a little shape.  I was satisfied with them, but I also felt they weren’t the right size and shape for my body. 

I felt a little un-proportionate, as if my breasts weren’t quite large enough.  And this is not to say I wanted ENORMOUS breasts or anything, I just wanted something that would give me a more realistic shape for my body.  I also wanted something that felt, looked, and moved a little more realistically.  

Thanks to the generosity of The Breast Form Store, I finally have a pair of real breast forms that are, in a word, amazing.  I have done a few reviews for The Breast Form Store and I buy almost all of my heels and some of my lingerie from them, and I am fortunate to be on friendly terms with them. 

When I was sent some lingerie to review, I was also gifted with a new pair of breast forms.  These forms were selected based on my body type, weight, height, and measurements which was good because I wanted something that was more proportioned to my body.


When I opened the box I was struck by how large they were.  They are a 40B and are much more realistic and larger than I was used to.  When I tried them on I understood exactly why I was sent this size.  They were perfect.  There’s really no other word for them.  I loved how I looked in lingerie…

And I loved how I looked in a tight dress. 

I think my figure here looks pretty amazing but this figure is thanks to a corset, thigh pads, and my new forms.  This isn’t my body.  Not really.  But the right shape wear FEELS like my body.  My thigh pads move with me, my new forms move with me.  They move when I am going up and down stairs, they push up and give me cleavage, and they just feel like a part of me.  

Are they cheap?  No.  But creating your look is a combination of time, patience, and money.  Of course, this is not to say that you need forms, or anything else, to crossdress, to be femme.  But if you are looking for forms, then I absolutely recommend the Platinum Seal Classic.


Very special thanks to all the girls at The Breast Form Store for my new girls.  I heart them.

Love, Hannah

Lingerie in Lilac

There are certain colors that are.. “off limits” for boys. Pink, that’s a significant one, but there are others. Like lilac. Sure men might wear a lilac dress shirt, but it’s a light purple shirt, thank you very much.

But come on, it’s lilac.

And I heart lilac.

I mean, it’s a beautiful flower and it smells lovely, but the color is so feminine.

I got to thinking about this when I was sent some beautiful lingerie from The Breast Form Store for my recent lingerie shoot.

The bra has all my favorite details, a feminine pattern around the mesh cups, a tiny bow in the middle. The bra sparkles with a touch of glitter. And! It’s a pocket bra for your forms. But with or without forms this bra is sexy and innocent.

The matching panty is super cute and while I don’t normally like boy-short type panties, I really liked this pair. It’s designed to be worn over a gaff (which is helpful when it comes to boy-shorts) but tucking is also comfortable with this panty.

And the back is lacy and seductive.

I hope you like these photos! I do realize that the color of this set is actually lavender (according to the website), I just think lilac is more femme. 🙂

Love, Hannah

Lingerie Review!

Of course black is the color of sexiness, red is the color of romance, and nothing is more feminine than pink.

But white? White is innocence, purity, virginal.

And I love it.

I was sent some lovely lingerie from The Breast Form Store a few weeks ago that I wore for last month’s lingerie shoot. When I opened the box I was greeted with rose petals and the most beautiful, innocent white bra and panty set.

The most eye-catching part of any piece of lingerie for me is the tiny attention to details and this set has tiny little bows, delicate lace, and beautiful edging. And the panty has soft mesh on the sides! The bra has underwire and is absolutely perfect for the girls 🙂

This has a very romantic, almost vintage look to it. It’s alluring, sexy, and beautiful.

The panty fits girls like us and is comfortable to wear all day. I know this because I wear this set a LOT.

When I had my last photo shoot, this was the bra and panty set I wore for pictures we took in a dress because I loved how my bust looked in it. The panty also covered up the gaff I wore for the dress pictures.

Love, love, love this set.

Thank you to The Breast Form Store for this beautiful lingerie.

Love, Hannah

Inevitable

Have you ever felt like something was both inevitable and not going to happen in a million years?

Have you ever done something that felt the complete opposite than you expected?

That was this past Saturday in a nutshell.


A few weeks ago The Breast Form Store sent over a few items for me to sample and review.  Some new forms (more on those later but OMG), a new gaff, and some lingerie.  Usually when I am sent clothes to review I will have professional photos taken by my friend Shannonlee.  When I have done reviews for gaffs, lingerie, or a corset I have used product pictures from the designer’s website to illustrate my review.  But this time…  I couldn’t stop thinking about if I wanted to do a lingerie shoot for the review.  I am not sure what changed my mind from something I didn’t think, or want to happen in a million years to something I sorta kinda maybe wanted to do, but honestly I think it’s the past year that has really shaped my perspective on life.  


A funny thing happened around my last birthday.  I noticed I started to think about, well, the end of my life.  Not to sound dramatic and I know I have a lot of time left (fingers crossed), but I spent a lot of time thinking about what I want to do with the rest of my life.  Some of my thoughts were practical, such as making sure my wife and I were financially stable, some of it was more fun, like planning a vacation.  These thoughts, combined with how COVID has really impacted the world and has limited what we can and should do, I thought about life is short and things we want to do could stop being an option very suddenly.  Sure, I want to go on a trip and yes I want to go to the mall without a mask but it’s not smart to do either of these things right now.  A year and a half ago no one would have thought that life would be like this.  But it is, and could be for a long time.


The idea of a lingerie shoot terrified me and at the same time the fear wasn’t stopping me from thinking about it.  I talked to my wife about what I was thinking and we had a good conversation about everything from what I was feeling about life and time running out and fears of someone we know stumbling across the pictures (because let’s face it, if I am going to do it I am likely posting the photos) to what I wanted, and didn’t want if I did the shoot.  After our talk, I felt lighter.  I didn’t realize how crushing my feelings of life running out were impacting me.  Honestly?  I realized I was scared of getting old, getting sick, not being able to do things I wanted to do, whether it was a boudoir shoot or going for a run.  I know the day will come when I shouldn’t be driving (and yes I know that day is decades away) or or doing things that I take for granted.  I don’t want to regret things I could have done.  Things that I want to do but kept putting off, whether it was a lingerie shoot or visiting Italy.


So I did it.  


The shoot, not the trip.  At least not yet.


The shoot happened almost 48 hours from me writing this and I am still processing it.  I didn’t really know what to expect, but I was surprised at how…  nervous and awkward I felt.  I’ve done a lot of shoots over the last five years.  Some for fun, some for reviews, some for En Femme.  I’ve worn everything from wrap dresses to PVC skirts to pants so I am accustomed to being photographed in a lot of different outfits.  But stockings and bras?  Good god.  Lingerie is something one wears for themselves, for intimate moments, for sleeping.  Lingerie is personal, private, and a secret.  Wearing lingerie when someone other than my wife is in the room is a… well, I felt as uncomfortable and as awkward as you can imagine.  I felt silly.  Although I wasn’t expecting it to be…  I don’t know, erotic, I didn’t expect it to be a big deal considering my previous shoots and outfits.  I felt exposed and nervous.  Not exactly strutting out of a comfort zone.


As the shoot progressed I felt a little less nervous and self-conscious.  Shannonlee always helps me come out of my shell a bit and she was as professional as it gets.  She is also my friend.  I can’t imagine letting anyone else photograph me for a shoot like this.


I’ll (probably) post the finished shots, but I wanted to share some pictures from that day.  These were taken with an iPhone (please excuse the quality) and haven’t been touched up with lighting and whatever magic Shannonlee does.  They are also in black and white because, well, black and white is… forgiving.  Let’s leave it at that.


As I write this I can honestly say I am glad I did this, even with all the nervousness and anxiety the day brought.  I can’t say I will ever do this again, but I think this is one less thing I will have on my list of regrets when things like this aren’t an option anymore.


Be gentle.


Related reading

Strutting Out of a Comfort Zone

All We Have is Who We Are

Love, Hannah

Ask Hannah!

You have talked a fair bit about the Jolie Thigh Pads you got from The Breast Form Store. I was just wondering if you had any advice or experience with more inexpensive options to help enhance the appearance of curves, particularly in the hips and booty?  

I heart my thigh pads. I heart my Nikki Bum Pads, as well.

And yes, they are not cheap. But! They are not cheaply made, either. I have had mine for almost two years and despite a lot of wear, they have never torn or lost their shape. They warm naturally to my body and move with me very comfortably.

Although there is no right or wrong way to be a girl and there are no standards one must meet to be femme, I believe that crossdressing take time, money, and patience.

It takes time to learn to walk in stilettos, it takes patience to learn makeup, and it costs money or quality. Crossdressing is one of those things that, for the most part, your investment will pay off. You’ll get better at liquid eyeliner the more time that you practice, you’ll strut for hours after you invest a lot of time in heels.

Let me add that you don’t need a curvy body to be femme. But if you want a curvy shape I think you’d be happy with what The Breast Form Store has.

As far as I know, The Breast Form store does not have any other options with the exception of padded panties, but they are not quite the same.

Glamour Boutique does carry a few options that seem to be a little easier on your purse than The Breast Form Store, but I don’t know. If you’re going to invest in something like this, it my be worth to invest a little more for the Jolie and Nikki forms.

On a related note, I just got a pair of proper breast forms from The Breast Form Store and my goodness, I am in love. For years I’ve worn a pair of forms that just added a little boost to my bust, but these new forms… its a game changer.

A review is coming. 🙂

Love, Hannah

Have a question for me?  Oh yes you do.  Ask me here!

Ask Hannah!

What sort of bra do you recommend and how do you know what size to buy?


-Do you have actual breasts or do you use/wear forms? Just starting to explore and very confused about forms. What is the correct or proper shape to look for, teardrop, oval, triangle, round ? I have yet to find 2 articles supporting the same shape so I’m confused. The one thing I have found that seems to be standard is that silicone has the best feel, movement, bounce, fiber fill & foam don’t so now if I can understand the shape to look for or go with I have a starting point.  


Both of these questions bounced into my email within a day of each other and since they are similar I thought I’d tackle them in one post.


I have a LOT of bras.  I have bras that I wear en femme, and I have bras that I wear for underdressing.  Basically the bras that I wear under my boy clothes are ones without any sort of padding, shape, or push-uppiness.  That’s not a word but you know what I mean. Most of these bras come from Xdress and Homme Mystere.


The bras I wear en femme are more varied and more… uh, practical.  I have bras that are strapless, I have bras with an embroidered pattern, push up bras, and bras of many colors.


A girl needs a white or beige bra because some outfits and blouses are a LITTLE see through and a black or darker color will show through some tops.  I mean, if that’s the look you’re going for, then have at it.  


Strapless bras are for strapless dresses, or dresses and tops where the shoulders are see-through or mesh, for example.  


I don’t wear bras with a texture to the cup if I am wearing a tight blouse as the texture can show through.


See?  Lingerie can be practical.  


As for sizing, if you’re not comfortable meeting with a bra fitter, you can take your own measurements.  I wear a 34B bra.  The number refers to my chest measurement/band size, the letter refers to cup size.  A rule of thumb is your band size is your chest measurement and then add four (round up if needed).


Third Love has an EXCELLENT guide for determining your bra size and I would encourage you to take a look as they know more about this then I ever will.

I don’t have breasts but I wear forms.  They are not the best quality but they do the job.  They are silicone….ish.  Not as high quality as my thigh and hip pads from The Breast Form Store and I would agree with what you are reading in that silicone feels better than anything else.  My forms have a somewhat similar feel to my silicone pads but I don’t feel my forms are a part of me the same way my thigh pads do.


Shape comes down to personal preference, I think.  Breasts come in all shapes and sizes so I don’t think there is such a thing as the correct shape.  I would spend some time looking at The Breast Form Store‘s website and chatting with one of their fitters (Hi Eden!) for some guidance in finding forms that you feel are the right ones.

Love, Hannah

Have a question for me?  Oh yes you do.  Ask me here!

These Are A Few More Of My Favorite Things

Continuing yesterday’s writing on a few of my favorite things, today I am putting the spotlight on The Breast Form Store.  


When I started to move from exclusively lingerie to, well, everything else, I wanted to be as “natural” as possible.  I liked my shape, I was comfortable, and I thought I looked cute.  I had purchased, almost on a whim, some breast forms a few years ago and I was amazed at how much I liked them.  They gave me an attractive bustline and dresses simply looked better on me.  I like the way they moved with me and I love the shape they gave me.  I started to look more into shapewear and pads.  The Breast Form Store caught my eye and I was surprised by how much they had to offer.

The Breast Form Store is also very active on Twitter.  They follow a lot of t-girls, drag queens, and crossdressers and are always retweeting pictures of girls like us.  They are supportive and enthusiastic about our community. 


Of course they have breast forms, but they also have other pads and enhancements as well as cute clothes and sexy heels.  These are a few things from them that I love and I think you will too.


First off, Jolie Thigh Pads.  It is not an exaggeration to say they have changed my life.  I was amazed at how much of a difference they made to how I looked.  You can read my review here so I won’t rave about them too much here but I absolutely love how they look.  Dresses and skirts simply look better on me when I wear them. 

They give me a curvier, more shapely body than I had ever imagined.  Pair them with hip pads and va-va-va-vooooooooooooooom.  A little on the pricey side but I believe that they are an essential investment.  Remember, creating your look takes time and patience, but in some cases, it also takes money.


The name ‘The Breast Form Store’ doesn’t leave much guesswork as to what they sell, so I was delighted to see the options they had for heels.  Earlier this year they sent me several pairs of heels to review.  Usually when I am sent something to review I end up wearing it only a few times since I, you know, keep buying new clothes so I am surprised by how much I wear two of their heels in particular.  

First up, Pleaser EVE 5 inch Wrap Around Sandals with Bow Accent.  Like a little black dress, I find a pair of black heels to be pretty essential.  Of all the black heels I own I wear these the most often.  They’re comfortable and I think the bows and the straps are subtle but eye-catching.    These heels are sexy and playful. 


Next up, Pleaser Dream 4 inch Criss-Cross d’Orsay High Heel Pumps. Someone told me that if I am unsure as to what heels pair well with an outfit, then you can never go wrong with beige.  I wasn’t convinced because, I mean, BEIGE.  Not as cute as white, not as femme as pink, not as sexy as black.  Just… BEIGE. 

Not the most exciting color.  But this girl likes her heels so I bought a pair.  And that someone was right.  I was surprised by how often I wore them, especially with a brightly colored dress.  In some ways a pair of beige heels doesn’t “compete” with your outfit and doesn’t take away the attention from what you’re wearing.  But I love sexy, I love subtle and these heels deliver.  The color is one I think every girl needs, but they also have a subtle sexiness that I adore.  The strappy, crisscross detail is exactly what I mean. If beige isn’t your color, the heels do come in different options.  

Before pads and forms I wanted to be as “me” as possible when it came to my body.  Tucking is one of those conversations a girl like us tends to have.  Nothing ruins a good dress like a penis, someone once said.  I was always a little afraid of tucking as I had heard stories of girls doing it wrong.  I also didn’t see how much more effective a gaff could be compared to a tight pair of panties or a thong.  But crossdressing is about learning and I was happy to find out how wrong I was about tucking and gaffs.  First off, if you are tucking and it hurts, then you are doing it wrong.  Listen to your body.  Secondly, find an effective and comfortable gaff.  I reviewed a couple different styles of gaffs from The Breast Form Store and I was impressed by how comfortable (after some trial and error, but again, learning by doing) and how effective they were.  I understand that minimizing or emphasizing parts of our body isn’t right for everyone, but if you are looking to minimize your “feminine flaw” then you should look into these.

There’s nothing quite like finishing your day in a nightgown.  I have a few nighties and most of them fall slightly above the knee so I was really happy to find the Elegant Moments ‘Serena’ Satin Gown.  It’s long and feels amazing with newly shaved legs.  The smoothness of my skin against the fabric is simply divine.  I wasn’t sure about the halter tie but it’s never been an issue when I wear this gown.  I love falling asleep in this and I love waking up in it.  You will too.  🙂


Love, Hannah

Dressed to Kill

I did a lot of shopping under quarantine. I thought a lot about what I was going to do, and what I was going to wear once things returned back to normal. Of course, things haven’t returned back to normal and if they do, it probably won’t be for a long time.

One of the dresses I bought I thought of as my “out of lockdown” dress. Something that screamed dressed to kill and I found it at En Femme.

I didn’t wear this dress the first time I went out once many of the restrictions were lifted, but I did wear it for a photo shoot I did to review a pair of stilettos from The Breast Form Store.

Shannonlee shot some fabulous pictures of the dress and I wanted to show them off (big surprise). I hope you like them!

Love, Hannah

This T-Girl’s on Fire

I’m tall. Tall enough where I am asked if I played basketball in high school.

I didn’t.

As advantageous as my height would have been when it came to passing a basketball, I always felt my height was a disadvantage when it came to “passing”.

I’m used to being tall. I mean, it happened so gradually. It’s not like I shot up four inches overnight and had to get accustomed to being a new height. Wearing heels, though, that was an adjustment. I never had difficulty walking in heels. It came very easy for me, probably because I really really really wanted to get good at it so I practiced a lot as soon as I had a pair of heels to call my own.

Wearing stilettos at home is one thing, but there is nothing like the sound of heels clicking on a sidewalk. It’s the beautiful everyday music, the soundtrack of femininity. It’s my favorite song. I had longed for years to leave the house en femme, but I always felt too tall to pass, too tall to be a girl.

And then one day I got tired of being in my own house, I was tired of telling myself what I couldn’t do, so I put on a cute black skirt, black stockings, a brightly colored top, a cardigan… and black heels. I clicked my way down sidewalks and the corridors of shopping malls and I haven’t stopped.

What changed? I mean, I was still tall, I was even taller in heels. But I realized there was no such thing a passing. I was never going to blend in, I was always going to stand out. realized that no matter how tall I was, no girl is too tall to be a girl. Not even you. Not even me. If I am going to be seen, then I may as well embrace it. I am going to wear that bright pink dress, the longest lashes, and yes, the tallest heels.

Because I dress for me. Not for anyone else.

I never feel taller in heels. I mean, I feel shorter when I take them off, but I don’t feel like I just stepped onto a ladder when I put them on. Yes, I have to crouch down a little when I look into certain mirrors, but it’s not like “wow, I’m tall”.

Until I put these heels on.

Ladies, feast your eyes on the Pleaser DELIGHT 6 inch Platform Rose Gold Stilettos with Lace Up Support from The Breast Form Store.

I opened the box like opening Christmas presents. I was entranced by the shoe, it’s beauty, it’s… majesty. This was unlike any heel I have ever worn before. I prayed to God they would fit. And thank God the fit and run true to size.

For the first time in my life, I stood up in a pair of heels and finally said “wow, I am really tall”. Six inch platforms will do that for you.

Of course, if you are looking at the picture you may wonder why in the world would need a heel like that. If you are wondering why anyone would need a heel like this, this heel is not for you.

But there are just as many thinking “OMG I need this”. If you think you need this, then you probably do need it. Well, maybe not need but you know what I mean.

How does the shoe feel? Well, it runs true to size, it’s properly balanced, the platform is smooth and it’s just as comfortable walking in them as it feels to stand in them.

But how does it feel to wear them? Honestly? I felt like a goddess. I felt powerful.

Some heels go with anything. Some inspire an outfit. These heels demand something daring, something provocative, something… sexy. God knows I love my leather (and fake leather) and it just seemed appropriate for thee heels. I almost went with fishnets stockings but I decided that the pattern would in a way complete with the criss-cross laces.

Will I wear these heels all the time? Of course not, they are probably the most impractical thing I own. But how they make me feel is indescribable. It is the truest way to embrace my height. If there is another pair of stilettos that screams confidence and demands heads to be turned better than these heels then I haven’t seen them.

These heels are not for the timid. They are not for the shy. They are not for those who want to blend in. This is for the girl who want to be seen, the girl who has confidence to burn.

Thank you to The Breast Form Store for helping me literally rise to new heights of confidence.

Love, Hannah