Our Feminine Flaw

When I was young, I would think about the things I thought I would need to be beautiful.  A gorgeous wig, makeup, lingerie, a dress, and heels were always on the list.  As I grew older, I started to think about the things I needed to… ah, minimize or downplay.  Things like my adam’s apple, or my broad shoulders for example.  I thought if I ever had the courage to go out en femme, surely something like that would give me away.

Once I realized I would never pass, and that there was no such thing as passing anyway, I stopped worrying about things that would “give me away”.

Although I no longer am concerned about being clocked, I still strive to look as amazing as possible.  Over the last year I had added breast forms and Jolie Thigh Pads from The Breast Form Store to my closet.  For years I wanted to be as… authentic as possible, but seeing what forms and pads can do for my shape, I wonder why I waited so long.  I mean, look at my figure here.

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I have forms that boost my bust, pads that give my figure shape, but besides a tight pair of panties and stockings, nothing to really, uh, help with my feminine flaw.  I have gotten a few emails asking about tucking and gaffs but I never have tried a gaff before.

What is a gaff?  Basically it’s an undergarment that is designed to flatten out a penis and testicles to create a smooth appearance.  Usually a gaff is styled like a thong.

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Thanks to the generosity of The Breast Form Store, I have been sent a variety of styles to review and over the past few days I have been trying them and I’d love to share my thoughts on them.

The Breast Form store has a good selection to choose from, and I’ll be reviewing the Divine Collection and the Gold Seal Collection.

We are likely going into TMI territory here, so proceed with caution.

Wearing a gaff is not a magic garment that will automatically flatten out your genitals.  You need to tuck.  Tucking is basically pushing your genitals between your legs, and usually reaching around to pull them back and then using a gaff to hold them there.

That sounds like it hurts.

But it doesn’t.  If it hurts then you are doing it wrong.  Is it uncomfortable?  Well, no, but you definitely feel it.  Both of these gaffs do a remarkably effective job of holding things in place.

I have worn these gaffs over the past four days doing normal everyday things.  Walking, going up and down stairs, sitting, you know, normal things.  The gaffs kept everything in place.  I got used to where things were.  Again, if you feel any sort of pain, then stop and readjust.

Most gaffs are thongs.  Thongs are amazing when it comes to reducing panty lines in skirts and dresses so when I dress I wear thongs exclusively.

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I have thongs that are made for boys, things that are made for girls, and thongs made for boys that look like thongs that are made for girls.  These gaffs are a new thing altogether in terms of the front panel.  Thongs for boys have extra fabric in the front.  Thongs for girls tend to be narrower in the front.  These gaffs have a wide front panel to make sure that everything is secure.  No matter how much I moved, I never needed to readjust and not once did I fall out.

I also liked that the gusset was wide enough.  The gusset is the fabric of a panty that is between the front and the back, basically the part that goes between your legs.  Since this is where you would tuck your parts, the gusset needs to be able to secure everything in order to prevent you from sliding or falling out.  Most panties and thongs are not designed to tuck, so the gaffs have a huge advantage here.

So, they functioned well.  They were well designed and did the trick in terms of keeping things where I put them.  But how effective were they?

I love leggings and I thought that this was a perfect excuse to wear them for a few days in boy mode.  Normally my anatomy is noticeable when I wear them, but the gaffs, along with tucking, created a very smooth shape.  I was impressed with how effective they were.

I did notice a few differences between the styles.

 

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I was sent two styles of the Divine collection.  One style was the thong, the other a tanga.  A tanga panty is not a thong, but it does not cover as much in the back as a traditional panty does.  I found that both the thong and tanga style were pretty similar in terms of comfort and tucking.  Both were equally effective in terms of keeping everything in place.  The Divine’s front panel is longer than the Gold Seal which made tucking easier as there was more fabric to push things down.

The Divine style also has a small pocket should you wish to insert a silicone vagina.

Gold Seal

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The Gold Seal style has a shorter front panel compared to the Divine style, but a slightly wider gusset.  Overall the Gold Seal style is smaller and tighter than the Divine style.  It took a little longer to get used to this gaff compared to the Divine style.  Since the front panel is shorter, tucking required a little more effort, however since the gaff is smaller compared to the Divine, and the gusset is wider, I felt that the Gold Seal kept things in place better and provided a smoother effect.

Both gaffs are wonderful and I would recommend either one.  Ultimately I prefer the Gold Seal because it provides a smoother, flatter look, but the Divine is more comfortable.  As a girl who prefers stilettos to flats, I am more than happy to forgo comfort over style.

I used to think that I didn’t NEED a gaff.  And no one NEEDS a gaff.  I didn’t think a gaff could do what a pair of panties or tights could do, but I was very wrong.

Thank you to The Breast Form Store for providing these gaffs for review!  I am excited to include them in my wardrobe.

Love, Hannah

 

 

Stealthing

Fifteen years ago I identified as a crossdresser.  I still do, I suppose, but I prefer t-girl.  I think bi-gender might be a more fitting label, however all these titles fall under identifying as transgender, in my opinion.

Regardless, I went from strictly underdressing to, well, who I am today.  I still underdress, but as I started to add makeup and clothes that weren’t panties and lingerie, I wanted to look as good as I could in dresses and pencil skirts.  I never thought I would want to wear padding or shape enhancers, but I have been completely won over with my Jolie Thigh Pads from the Breast Form Store.  The look is amazing, and feeling my curvier shape is incredible.  I look more natural when I wear them, as seen in the photo below.

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I have worn corsets in the past and I have always loved how sexy they looked, but I wasn’t wearing them for the practical purpose of obtaining a more hourglass look or a trimmer waist.  That changed when I received my Dita Corset from Glamorous Corset a few months ago.  Pairing the corset with my thigh pads and breast forms achieves a shapelier look beyond anything I could have hoped for.

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Seasoning a corset takes time and dedication.  I got used to wearing it in male mode, but like underdressing, I was always conscious of it being visible under my clothes.  The lacy edging of my panties or my bra strap is one thing, but a corset is a little different.

Glamorous Corset is here to help with some tips for ‘stealthing’, basically how to wear a corset in public.  I thought this would be helpful for those of us who underdress in male mode.  It certainly was helpful to me.

Love, Hannah

 

 

 

My Name is Hannah and I Approve this Message

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Yay!  My first published endorsement!

This is the for the Mane Attraction Enchantress Wig from the Breast Form Store which I wrote a review for recently.  I’m having a lot of fun doing these reviews and I have a couple more dress reviews coming soon.  I hope to continue to more projects like this, so if there is something that you think would be a good product to review, please let me know!

Love, Hannah

 

Spring Photo Shoot: Summer Girl

Last week I posted some photos modeling a new ‘do courtesy of The Breast Form Store.  The hair inspired an outfit I put together but never had the opportunity (or courage) to wear.  It was a fun, cute summery outfit that I wasn’t sure was *me* or not.

But a new hairstyle can do wonders and I was brave enough to try a new look.

So, what do you think?

Makeup by Corrie Dubay

Photography by Shannonlee McNeely

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Love, Hannah

 

 

Change Your Hair, Change Your Life!

I have always had dark hair.  The color suited me and it matched my eyebrows.  Black hair was just…me.  However, I’ve always been a little curious about what I would look like if I changed it up a bit.  I recently had the chance to find out.

The Breast Form Store sent me two items to review recently.  One of them was the amazing Jolie Thigh Pads and the other was a Mane Attraction Enchantress Wig

My first impression of the wig was…well, I was a little intimidated.  That sounds rather odd but when you go from a certain hair color and style for a long time it can be a little scary to make a change.  The wig is light brown (the official color is cocoa) and the ends of the hair curled in a fun, playful way.

Although this was a big change from what I was used to, I also was excited to wear it.  The color and style just screamed SUMMER to me.  It sounds silly, but I immediately thought it would be perfect with my new pink skirt and jean jacket.

Wigs are not always easy to buy.  Changing your hairstyle can change your entire look and our attitude, confidence, and how we think of ourselves is often tied into how we feel about how we present yourself.  The first time I tried it on was…well, it didn’t go well.  But that was not the wig’s fault.  If I was apprehensive about changing my look before, I was even more nervous after that.

I put the wig away until it was time for my last photo shoot.  I had my outfit picked out for the wig and I was excited to see if I could pull off a sassy, flirty, summer look.  Do you see what I mean about changing your hair and changing your life?  😉

When it was time to take pictures of my new hair, I changed into the outfit the wig inspired and Shannonlee and I went outside to take advantage of the outdoor light.  It was a beautiful and warm spring day and the sun cooperated magnificently.

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As the photos progressed, I became more used to my new look.  I started to really love how the hair, the sun, and my outfit all seemed to be fueling my mood.  I was amazed by how much fun I was having.

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These shots were the final photos of the day.  I had a few errands to run after the session and I kept the wig on.  I loved how it looked, I loved the impact it had on my mood, I loved that this change was something I could pull off.  I couldn’t help but check myself out in the mirrors at Target and the other stores I visited before going home.

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There are many different options when it comes to buying a wig.  This particular wig is made of synthetic fiber which allows it to be washed if you do it properly.  The lace front allows the wig to blend in naturally and create a natural hairline.  Simply put, this wig does not look I am wearing a wig.

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I imagine I’ll always be a raven-locked girl, but it’s fun to have a new summer look for a few months.

Thank you to The Breast Form Store for providing the wig for this review.

Makeup by Corrie Dubay

Photography by Shannonlee McNeely

Love, Hannah

Spring Photo Shoot: Mesh Dress

A couple of weeks ago I had a photo shoot to highlight some products I was sent to review.  The first review was for Jolie Thigh Pads from The Breast Form Store and you can read my review here.  Shannonlee and I did some pictures against a white backdrop for the review photos, but the dress I wore was so fabulous that we did some photos for fun.  I hope you like them!

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Makeup by Corrie Dubay

Photography by Shannonlee

Dress by Momtuesdays 2 from Amazon

Love, Hannah

Knocking You Out With My American Thighs

I do not believe there is a standard anyone must meet in order to identify as or look like a woman.  I do not believe that anyone, trans or cis, can be too tall, too broad shouldered, too thin, or too anything to be the gender we identify as.

I’ve worked hard to be able to present how I would like to, whether it was taking makeup lessons or losing weight.  Losing weight and dropping from a size 20 to a size 12 helps me live a healthier life and I like how I look in clothes more than ever, whether it is a suit or a bodycon dress.  The only drawback to losing weight was losing a little curve when I wore a dress.

All of that has changed with Jolie Thigh Pads from The Breast Form Store.

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I would like to thank The Breast Form store for sending these pads to review.  When I opened the package I was really surprised at how soft they felt.  Since they are self-adhesive I did not need to use any tape or spray.  However, if you are going to wear a dress or a skirt but not pantyhose or tights, I would recommend using an adhesive just in case.

The color of the pads looked natural against my skin color and are available in several skin tones.

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They are made of silicone and they felt soft and…well, real.  Even before getting dressed I could see the immediate impact on how they made me look.  The pink lines on the photo below indicate approximately where I am wearing the pads.   The pads themselves are bigger than I would have expected (sixteen inches long and eight inches wide), but they really give off a nice little…oomph to my figure.

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For the first day I wore them with leggings.  I wore them for about eight hours at home and the difference was remarkable.  I looked curvy.  I felt curvy.  I had hips!  Leggings are wonderful and they hug your body so the difference between wearing the pads and not wearing them was instantly noticeable.  They gave me an hourglass shape I never had before.

The pads moved with me.  They were as part of me as anything could be.  Except for checking myself out in every mirror of the house, I forgot I was wearing them.  Under my leggings they felt like, well, my thighs and hips.  No matter if I was sitting legs crossed or walking or going up and down stairs, the pads moved with me.  I never noticed them.  They did warm comfortably to my skin but they never felt sweaty or heavy.  They were…my thighs.

I wore them all day and forgot I had them on.  When it was time to change, I wondered how it would feel to remove them.  After eight hours they were a part of me and never became loose or slid from where I placed them.  They were easy to remove and were stored in the plastic packaging they came in.

The next day I wore them with my femme jeans.  Like leggings, these jeans hugged my body and the difference was very clear.  No matter the angle, I could see how much curvier my body was.  The pads had a natural effect on my shape.  I felt…amazing.  We all know how we look can impact how we feel and I hadn’t been this excited about dressing in years.

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Over the next few days I raided my wardrobe and tried on a lot my dresses with the pads.  Dresses are often designed for someone with hips and the pads helped make my dresses look amazing.  Skirts hung differently.  My hands rested naturally on my new hips and every outfit looked better than before.

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After a week of wearing them in male mode at home, it was time to dress up and go out.  I had plans to see a play for a few weeks and I had a dress already picked out.  However, the pads changed my mind.  Instead I wore one of my favorite leather dresses.  Leather is pretty unforgiving and I was excited to see how I looked.  I looked amazing.  Before this dress kind of just… hung on to me, but now the dress hugged my new curvy body.  I was afraid that it would be obvious I was wearing pads but they stayed in place and tapered and blended nicely to my body.

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The only thing I had to adjust was changing the size of tights and pantyhose I wear.  Normally I would use the little chart on the packaging to determine my size.  If I was in a gray area, I would usually get the size that was for my height.  Now that I have hips I need to factor in my new curvier shape instead of my height.

I’ve often said that it takes time, money, mistakes, and patience to create ourselves.  Mastering new skills, whether it is painting a piece of fine art or perfecting your makeup, we should be prepared to invest energy, time, and money.  Depending on the size you choose, these pads range from $300 to $350.  That may seem expensive, however keep in mind that these pads are designed to last a long time.  I think of the pads as an investment.

I have worn my pads for the past few weeks and I absolutely love them.  If you are looking to fill out a dress or add more curve to your figure, I cannot recommend these pads enough.

Thank you to The Breast Form Store for providing the Jolie Thigh Pads for this review.

Makeup by Corrie Dubay

Photography by Shannonlee McNeely

Love, Hannah