This time of the year is always a little weird for me.
I mean, I think it’s weird for all of us and for different reasons. I think the best way I can describe the last three weeks of a year is that things are winding down.
Of course, things are also ramping up in terms of getting ready to celebrate different holidays and likely year-end work related projects or whatever, but we are more or less in the “it can wait until next year” mindset.
The final weeks of a year always forces me to think back on everything that happened and as the new year looms in the distance, I think about what the next twelve months will bring. What do I want to do? What goals do I have? What projects should I take on?
I mean, there always things like “increase year over year productivity” or whatever that I’m sure my boss would love if I choose to do this. There are always projects around the house that need attention.
Buuuut I’m also thinking about what Hannah will do in 2024.
I’m at a point in my life where I have done (almost) everything I’ve wanted to do as well as things I’ve only dreamed of. There’s nothing, well, obvious about what to do next.
Buuuut this time of the year can be, well, very influential about what I take on in the upcoming twelve months.
What I mean is that as the year winds down, there are things (mostly work related) that demand a lot of my time and attention that, as I mentioned, are kind of at a standstill as we put new projects on hold until January. The bandwidth that is dedicated to work stuff has been freed to think about other things.
I’ve a restless heart and I can’t ease into a mindset of relaxing or enjoying a break. I need to use that bandwidth for SOMETHING. I need to PLAN things. I am more open to new challenges and projects that I normally would decline but with all this mental free time I tend to give them more consideration.
Case in point! En Femme and I have talked about doing videos for years but I felt I couldn’t commit to anything else. But they asked again right around this time in 2022 and I agreed.
Basically if you are interested in collaborating (or whatever) with me, this is the perfect time to ask.
So! I am thinking about what I’ll do in 2024. I’ll do more Help me, Hannah! videos, and more photo shoots so I am thinking about video topics and photo shoot themes. I am thinking about MN T-Girls events.
I’m also thinking about, well, stuff that isn’t related to gender. What I mean is that it would be fun to start a book group or do a new video series that has nothing to do with being gender non-conforming. I tweeted earlier this year about joining a local amateur ghost hunter group and honestly I was only half-joking.
To be clear, I don’t think I believe in any of that but it’s always fascinating to talk to people who have very different interests and perspectives.
I thought it would be fun to do a series of videos about different interests (such as ghost hunting) but this would require me to learn video editing and I don’t think I want to learn that.
I have a mindset of “anything is possible” right now and as inspiring as that sounds, I am also aware of overcommitment. Like, yes, right now life is a little less hectic than it normally is, but in a few weeks things will roar back to the same intensity as they normally have. Adding one more project (or whatever) onto the proverbial pile might be a mistake.
But for now, a girl can dream.
Love, Hannah
Hannah McKnight 
I truly love to read your posts but now they are critically important for me since at 65 I have reached the point where I simply must transition. I am terrified! Your blog has a way of calming me,
With the deepest gratitude
Kimberlyann Marie Ewing
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Well said Kimberlyann! You are not alone in your journey! I too look forward to the posts to help ground me.
Nadine
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Hi Hannah. Count me in on the ghost hunt! Many good places locally to explore. I personally would like to rent a secluded cabin for a long weekend with a few girlfriends where we could sit in nature and not have to worry about the rest of the world. Unfortunately, I think everyone will need some distractions in 2024 as the hate meter will be off the charts more than anything this country has seen. Hate seems to be the growing mechanism that people are using to process their own feelings and emotions when they encounter differences. “If I am going after somebody else or other group, then I don’t have to look at myself….” Trans Woman recently murdered in Minneapolis just because she was Transgender. The hate is real so not suggesting we ignore, but we can offset some of that hate by being kind, understanding, forgiving, and loving towards others. We will never eradicate hate, but important that we rise above and remember that there is something greater, bigger than us that lives us and has a purpose for all of our lives no matter how dark the clouds get at times.
Nadine
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As a person who has watched tons of ghost shows, I can honestly say that the more one watches, the less he/she will believe in them.
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People will never understand T-girls , who Have a Must at least to come out to someone Privately so I searched and came out to you Hannah more than a decade ago , I see when one is part of the T-family ,one loves being comfortable and wants to be with other T-girls for life.
𝒱𝑒𝓇𝒶 𝒬
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I REALLY like your idea on starting something non gender. I have a very dear friend in a different state from me who can not find people to hang out with who are looking to only hang out, and NOT hook up. Unfortunately, the family of my friend is currently non accepting of the cross dressing, and have said they do not want to see it 😦 My family and I are very accepting, but we’ve only been able to hang out together once because of distance. My family would hang out and go shopping any day with anyone in the same situation where we live, but how would they even find us to know that?
I constantly worry about my friend possibly getting depressed. Something non gender might be able to help people find accepting friends to hang out with and just be themselves.
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