Not For You

My friend Marci and I were chatting recently about men commenting on photos we post online.  Most comments are kind, but of course there are always those that come from men who clearly sexualize and fetishize girls like us.

These comments are beyond the typical “ur sexy” comments but are oddly specific when it comes to being dominated by a girl like us or someone’s obsession with our feet.  Really?  Feet?

These responses are usually pretty easy to ignore and one would hope they are relatively harmless.  I do get annoyed at how they can contribute to the overall fetishization of our community and can influence the thinking that we are who we are for some sexual reason.  Who I am might be your fetish, but it is certainly not mine.

I am who I am for me, I am not who I am for you.

Love, Hannah

Skyscrapers and Stilettos

I was chatting with my friend Marci recently about how we often feel that we are the tallest girls in the world, and wearing four inch stilettos isn’t helping.

But no one is too tall to be a girl.  And no one is too tall to wear heels.

I was blown away by her newest photo composition which perfectly portrays how I feel when I am out in the real world.  I feel tall, I feel as if everyone is looking at me, and I feel beautiful.

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I hope you like this as much as I do and I really hope you follow her on Flickr.  You can see her other compositions here and here.

Love, Hannah

Ask Hannah!

I want to ask how I can tell my wife that I’m a cross dresser, I have been this way my whole life I’ve always known, I have tried to keep my desire a secret but the older I get it get harder to hide this .  I tried to come out to my wife 3 years ago , I got myself worked up to tell her and I even said the words but it didn’t go well and after talking for 3 hours I basically back tracked and said it was just a phase I went through as a teen and hadn’t done it since which was a lie and after all that and her questions the next day it was ignored and we haven’t mentioned it since and I just want her to say something again but she hasn’t.  Should I push the issue again?

I wouldn’t push the issue but that is different than bringing it up again.

Since you attempted to discuss it previously, you should know how she responded the first time.  You said it didn’t go well, but this revelation rarely does.  Why didn’t it go well?  What were her concerns?  Was she afraid you were gay?  That you wanted to transition?

If you do decide to bring the topic up again, be prepared to discuss what her concerns were that she raised the first time you came out.

And although she hasn’t brought it up since you had the talk, rest assured she probably thinks about it everyday.

Keep in mind that we shouldn’t come out with the hope or expectation that our partners will “let” us wear panties or paint our nails or however we wish to express our gender identity.  We should be open with our partners because it is the right thing to do, regardless of what we need to be open about.

Love, Hannah

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Playing Dress Up

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As shelter-in-place restrictions are eased, we are able to slowly and gradually return to parts of our lives that have been off-limits for a while.  I am excited for this for a number of reasons.  One would think these restrictions are being phased out because the curve is flattening but that doesn’t seem to be the case, unfortunately.  That would be the reason I would be most excited about, but that doesn’t seem to be the case.

Regardless, I am excited to go out en femme and resume MN T-Girls events and photo shoots.  I have a shoot in June for En Femme and another shoot for some amazing stilettos I was sent to review.

Part of my review for the heels will be about matching the shoes with an appropriate outfit.  Which mini-dress looks best with a pair of sky-high stilettos, for example.  Sometimes the answer is obvious, sometimes this decisions keeps me up at night (not really.  Okay, maybe a little).

This side of me has an amazing wardrobe with a zillion different possibilities.  On one hand this is wonderful, on the other hand, it can be quite intimidating.  Putting together an outfit with everything from earrings to stockings to shoes to a top and making sure it all goes together is a learning curve.  I still have a hard time matching a skirt to a top which is one of the reasons I mostly wear dresses.

I’ve been thinking about which dresses I will wear for the shoes over the last few days and I think I have decided on two out of the three, but still considering the final pair.  Putting together an outfit is not unlike playing dress up with paper dolls.

Have you found putting together outfits easy?  What are some of your fashion rules?
Love, Hannah

The Passing of Aimee Stephens


Aimee Stephens, the transgender woman at the center of a major employment rights case pending in the U.S. Supreme Court, died in Detroit on Tuesday at age 59.

Stephens was the first transgender person whose civil rights case was heard by the Supreme Court, according to the American Civil Liberties Union, which represented her. Her case concerns the question of whether federal law prohibiting employment discrimination applies to transgender employees.


After years of working as an embalmer and funeral home director at R.G. and G.R. Harris Funeral Homes in Livonia, Mich., Stephens informed her boss in 2013 that she was transitioning from male to female. She had been living as a transgender woman outside of work, and planned to follow the company’s dress code for women on the job. A short time later, Stephens was fired.

Backed by the federal Equal Employment Opportunity Commission, she sued her former employer. In 2018, the U.S. Court of Appeals for the Sixth Circuit ruled against the funeral home owners, saying that LGBTQ people are protected under Title VII of the Civil Rights Act of 1964, which states employers cannot fire, refuse to hire or otherwise penalize people because of their sex.

The funeral home owners appealed the ruling to the U.S. Supreme Court, arguing the civil rights laws were not intended to protect gay and transgender people. Additionally, they said, the funeral home was within its rights to insist that Stephens adhere to its dress code for male employees during work hours.

The case currently before the high court asks whether it is illegal sex discrimination, under federal civil rights statutes, to fire someone because they are transgender. The Supreme Court started hearing the case last year and its decision is expected by July.

Stephens, who suffered from kidney disease, was in the end stage of renal failure in recent weeks. She died in hospice care at home with her wife, Donna Stephens, by her side, the ACLU said.

According to a GoFundMe account asking for financial assistance to cover Stephens’ funeral costs and end-of-life care, being fired from her job in 2013 resulted in the loss of adequate health care coverage, “years of lost income” and “immediate financial strain, leading her spouse Donna to take on several jobs.”

“Aimee Stephens just wanted to continue to do the job she was hired to do, that she was good at, and that she was prepared to continue while living as her true gender,” Brian Bond, executive director of PFLAG National, said in a statement.

“Her fight will continue as we strive for equality for all, inclusive of sexual orientation and gender identity.”

In an interview last year with The Detroit News, Stephens said she was optimistic about the outcome of the pending Supreme Court case.

“I believe in what I’m doing. I’ve stood up for myself to make sure that it happens. That’s what keeps me going,” she said.

“If you’re part of the human race, which we all are, we all deserve the same basic rights. We’re not asking for anything special. We’re just asking to be treated like other people are.”

Love, Hannah

Ask Hannah!

If there was absolutely no downside to it (losing family, friends, etc for doing it), would you transition?

I guess I ask because every time I say “I don’t want to transition,” the why’s keep becoming fewer and fewer, and the more most of them start with “I don’t want to lose…”

I have never felt that living full time or transitioning was right for me.

I have never felt I was born with or that I live in the wrong body.

I do not feel that “this is right” when I am en femme.

I have never felt conflicted, confused, or frustrated about who I am.

So, no, regardless of family and friend support and reaction, I can’t see myself ever transitioning.  I am happy in both of my genders.  I don’t want to commit to one… ever.  And transitioning, from my perspective, would essentially be that.  I don’t want to give up my male gender identity any more than I want to give up my female gender identity.


If you are not already, I would encourage you to seek out a gender therapist to talk abut our feelings to help you determine if this is the right step for you.  And yes, most of us lose something, or someone, when we want to live our lives the way we feel is right for us.

I wish it were not that way.

Love, Hannah

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Two Worlds

I used to think I was two different people.

I know that sounds like the introduction to a book about someone who experiences multiple personalities, but it’s nothing as serious.

I have two very different wardrobes, two groups of friends, and so on.  I see and experience the world through two different perspectives.  I interacted and viewed life differently depending on my gender presentation.  It was easy to think I was two people, so to speak.

But over time I realized that I was one person but I viewed and interacted with the world differently depending on my gender presentation at the moment.  The perspective changed when I changed from sneakers to stilettos. The perspective changes changes because it needs to.

It’s a form of survival, in a way.

When I walk through the mall in boy mode, I never ever think about how someone will view me or what I will do if  see someone I know.  But en femme my heavily eyeshadowed eyes are always looking around.  Is there someone near me that is looking at me in an unfriendly way?  Is that a coworker across the hallway?  Although these two examples are very different from each other, they both are related for survival.  Of course I don’t want to be hurt, and I also do not want to be outed.

It happens less as time passes, but for years I would approach ever interaction, whether with a cashier or someone I passed by in a museum, thinking about how this person was going to respond to seeing or helping a t-girl.  99% of the time it was about as eventful as watching nail polish dry, thankfully.

I am not two people.  Despite two gender identities, two names, and two worlds, I am one.  Our experiences are influenced by what we project.  We will likely have a better day if we are cheerful and friendly to everyone we meet.  A bad day will not get better if we are rude or crabby with the world.  We respond to the world, and the world responds to us.  This shapes our perspective, our experiences.

Our lives.

Love, Hannah

T-Girl Spotlight: Isabelle

Isabelle is another absolutely gorgeous t-girl that I met on Twitter.

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Her makeup, her style, her wardrobe all caught my eye.  She has the cutest dresses I have ever seen and I would love to know where she shops.  Isabelle is from the UK and you can keep up with her on social media.




I am excited and honored to feature Isabelle in T-Girl Spotlight.

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My female name is Isabelle, I live in UK. I crossdress since I remember, however, in the past few years I find myself much more “professional”.

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My two biggest female passions are modeling and going out as woman. I always get a thrill of excitement when my heels click on some quiet street.

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 Crossdressing is my passion and nothing compares to it. It gave me some ups and downs, but I’m glad I can be myself.

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Ask Hannah!

I am in the process of opening up an online store for crossdressers. What products would you recommend me to sell?  What do crossdressers need the most?

Congratulations on taking this step!  If there’s one thing I love, it’s more options when it comes to shopping.

Years ago the idea of a store specializing in clothes for girls like us was inconceivable but I am amazed at how many options are available these days.  Even though there’s quite a few options, each one is different from each other and can all happily coexist.

Every t-girl/crossdresser is different and we all need and want different things.  Thankfully there are quite a few options out there.  When it comes to retailers that design for and market to our community, I shop online with En Femme, Xdress, Homme Mystere, Glamour Boutique, and the Breast Form Store the most.

I like Xdress and Homme Mystere for their beautiful, feminine lingerie. I like the Breast Form Store for their practical stuff, like forms, pads, and gaffsI like Glamour Boutique if I want something on the sexy side, and En Femme is a wonderful place for day to day clothes.

Dress from En Femme
Dress from Glamour Boutique
Thigh pads from the Breast Form Store

What you want to be known for?  What are you most passionate about?  There are a lot of options out there, but I always love finding a new place to buy heels and lingerie 🙂

I am not sure if this helps but I did write a little about what I think are “must-haves” for a girl like us.  Of course, we all have different perspectives on what we think are essentials.

What do you girls think are essentials?  What should a new store sell?  Please comment below!

Love, Hannah

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T-Girl Spotlight: Claire Jones

The first time I saw Claire on Twitter I was absolutely blown away.  She is radiant, her makeup is flawless, and I would love to spend a day with her wardrobe.  Claire is also as nice as can be.


I am excited and honored to feature Claire in T-Girl Spotlight.

Love, Hannah

If you’ve seen or spoken to me on Twitter (@claire_CJ_jones), hello again!  If you haven’t, please let me introduce myself.  My name’s Claire and I’m a very occasional transvestite who lives in Derbyshire, UK and who’s watching her half-century on this lovely planet quickly receding into the distance.  It can’t be 2020 already! The wonderful Hannah has kindly given me the opportunity to tell you a little more about myself, so grab yourself a drink, pull up a chair and let’s begin.

My early story is by no means uncommon by all accounts, and perhaps is a familiar theme to many readers.  My first memory of dressing was when I found a pair of my mum’s tights in my sock drawer, which had presumably been put there by mistake.  I must have been around 10 or 11, and although I’d had n conscious interest in what my mum or sister wore before, I felt a really strong urge to try them on.  I couldn’t because I had to get ready for school, but all through the day I just could not get the thought of wearing those tights out of my head.  I rushed home and later, while safely locked in the bathroom running my bath, I managed to pull them on.  The feeling was amazing & I guess you could say I was hooked from that day on, sneaking any chance I could to look ‘pretty’.

My urges grew through my teens culminating in wanting to dress fully as a woman, but all I could do was sneak a quick fix by stealing my sister’s or mum’s clothes while everyone was out.  Very frustrating.  It made me feel very guilty and unsure of my own sexuality as my dressing very much had a sexual element to it at that time too.  To put it bluntly, dressing turned me on and most of my teenage dressing experiences involved some sort of sexual tension and release, followed by the immediate urge to remove everything as quickly as possible and subsequent feelings of guilt and shame.  Was I gay?  Did I want to be a woman?  Nothing made sense, and as this was pre-internet, there was no way of finding anything out.  I was convinced I was the only one that did this, and anything I saw in the media or heard from anyone was negative, making me feel even more confused and ashamed.

In my early twenties, I’d been to University and the urge to dress tailed off as real life and marriage took more of a front seat.  My guilt at dressing never abated either, culminating in me eventually throwing the few things away that I had, convinced that it was all just a phase and that I was over it all.

I was right, up to a point.  Although I never dressed again until my early forties, the thought of it didn’t actually completely go away.  If I saw an article or something on the TV (Hah!) about crossdressing I just had to read or watch it, and the fear that there was something wrong with me was always there.

Then the internet arrived.  Finding out that, not only were there others like me out there, but that there were many others like me was an epiphany.  I really wasn’t alone.  The internet is held responsible for many things, but I know for certain it was key in Claire finally being born.  Knowing that I wasn’t just a freak meant that distant itch at the back of my mind slowly became more insistent, increasingly feeling that it was going to drive me crazy if I didn’t dress again.  So I did.

I’d registered on a few TV sites, mainly to ogle the other girls, but now I started to properly engage and started talking to a wonderful girl called Sarah.  We seemed to get on, and we shared similar interests so eventually I plucked up the courage to go visit her.  I had to borrow some clothes, but to dress completely for the very first time with clothes, wig, makeup and shoes was wonderful.  It felt like a huge weight had lifted from my shoulders, and the genie was well and truly out of the bottle!

I’ll always be incredibly grateful to Sarah for everything she’s done for me.

That was in late 2011, and since that time things have changed considerably.  Due to home and work circumstances I only get to dress four or five times every year, but when I do I try to make the most of it.  I always need to go ‘the whole hog’ when dressing, so it’s always 100% Claire or nothing, with wig, make-up, clothes and shoes, and my collection has slowly grown over time, though of course, it’s never enough!  I lost weight, I lost my body hair, and I lost most of my guilt.  Since Claire was born, dressing is no longer a sexual thing.  I try to do my best to present as feminine an image as possible as that is important to me, but most of all, my overriding feeling when dressed is of being at peace.  I relax.  I become more confident, and I feel much more…’me’.  I know I will never transition and have never had any desire to do so, but being able to allow the Claire side of me out to the world is a great comfort and I honestly believe, makes me a more rounded and better person.  I wish I could dress more often, but the opportunities I do get are enough to keep the need-to-dress madness at bay.


As already stated, my big passion is latex, so I’m usually to be found wearing the shiny stuff, though I have been known to wear more ‘sensible’ outfits on occasion!  There are probably some more normal photos on these very pages in fact.

Although I don’t dress very often, I do manage to get myself out in the world, from my very first outing to a Trans club, and on to eating out with friends at restaurants, to fetish clubs and other events, including visiting Sparkle- an annual event celebrating gender diversity- in Manchester for the past three years.  Saying that, my first visit there I didn’t see any of the Sparkle event as I spent the entire time at a rock club somewhere in Manchester!  Myself and my friend were the only two trans girls there, which was initially scary, but also very refreshing and exciting.  We had a great time, and the people were really friendly, despite it being obvious that we were transvestites.

One thing I haven’t mentioned is how tall I am, and how this affects things this could fill a whole section by itself.  In my smallest heels, I stand over seven feet tall.  Yes, that isn’t a typo.  While being that height can have certain advantages- mainly involving high shelves and concerts, and I also give good leg- it can also be a big disadvantage.  I guess the most obvious one is being able to get clothes to fit.  It’s almost impossible.  Even loner-length clothes from places such as Long Tall Sally are still way too short, and it frustrates me when things don’t look just…right.  It’s the same story with underwear and hosiery.  I guess that’s another plus for latex- I can get latex clothes made to measure!  Shoes also are a pain.  Not so much that I can’t get any, because there are several companies on the internet now that supply canoes with attached heels, but more because there is such a limited choice on the larger sizes.  I see so many pretty shoes that I’d love but know they don’t make them in my size.

The less immediately obvious issue with my height is how it affects me emotionally and socially, in both positive and negative ways.  Even in drab I get stared at, so there’s absolutely no way of going under the radar when dressed.  No matter how feminine, no matter how I move, how I speak, how I dress, there is no way I am ever going to pass, which I know many see as the Holy Grail of dressing and which is something I know I’m never going to achieve.  As Claire I get stared at constantly when out anywhere, but I’ve turned what could be something potentially very emotionally damaging into a positive.  Because I know I can’t go under the radar, I don’t even try.  I stand tall, I act confident, I look people in the eye and I smile at them.  Ninety-nine percent of the time they smile back.  Ironically, I think my height has made me into a more confident person when out in the world.  People will come up to me and talk to me, mainly out of curiosity, and I feel a responsibility to acquit myself well and give a good impression of myself and the trans community at large.  To that end it’s also helped make me more tolerant and understanding towards people’s lack of understanding or their prejudices.

Looking towards the future I’m well into my fifties now, and although the wrinkles are springing up in their droves and everything is starting to sag, I fully intend to carry on dressing for as long as I can.  Claire is a full part of my life now, I’ve made peace with that part of my psyche and although I try not to look back and regret things, I do wish the internet had been around when I was much younger.  Although I wish I could dress more, I wish I wasn’t as tall and I wish I could be more open about who I am, I know I’m actually incredibly lucky.  The grass always seems greener on the other side, but the reality is I’ve met so many lovely people- some of whom were my trans heroes during my early forays onto the internet- and I’ve experienced things I could never have dreamed I would do.  Overall, I can’t be anything but happy with what I have so I’m going to carry on enjoying what I can for as long as I can.  Onwards and upwards!


I haven’t mentioned anything about my, erm, kinks, on here as I’m not sure this is the place to do so.  If anyone wants to know more, please do say so!

A huge thank you goes out to Hannah for getting in touch and asking me to do this and giving me this incredible and humbling opportunity.  A final thank you goes to everyone who read this.  Whether or not you found any of it of interest or of use I don’t know, but if you did, please let me know.

Love to you all


And yes, it is cold up here!