On Wednesdays We Wear Black

I honestly can never decide if time is moving slowly or if it’s going too quickly. When someone mentions that it’s ALREADY the middle of September I don’t know how to respond. Sometimes I feel like being a bitch and saying yes, that’s how time works but really, I don’t know if it’s ALREADY the middle of September OR if it’s ONLY the middle of September.

That paragraph has nothing to do with anything in today’s post.

At any rate, I am still posting pictures from my most recent photo shoot and there’s another one this weekend already. This upcoming one is the annual photo shoot that the MN T-Girls have and I need to catch up on posting pictures from my last one.

I have an Amazon Wishlist and I don’t REALLY update it very often. Some items on there are simple things that I always need (well, not NEED. Someone told me that a NEED is a really strong WANT and I always think of that whenever I think I NEED something). Some are things I want, some items are things that I think would be fun to wear for a shoot but I can’t bring myself to dropping that kind of money on it.

Still, it’s fun to daydream. It’s not unlike making a Christmas list.

I feel a mixture of guilt and gratitude when someone buys me something and one day this dress popped up in my mailbox. I tried it on and it passed the “well, at least it fits” test. Buuuuut like a lot of clothes the photo of the model wearing it online was a lot cuter than it looked on me. It was, to put it mildly, soul crushingly devastating.

But I should be kinder to myself. The model was likely a young, petite cisgender girl and I have decades and testosterone working against me.

Photo shoots are the ultimate test of clothes. When I try on something that was bought online I am usually in male mood and dresses always look terrible. I mean, it’s the same body BUT not really. Hannah has curves thanks to her forms and corset. Hannah has her makeup done and looks as femme as I possibly can.

I tried the dress on again and I couldn’t believe it was the same dress. I loved it. I hope these pictures capture the happiness I felt.

Thank you to whomever sent this lovely outfit.

Love, Hannah