Talking about Nothing

Hi!

I think it’s important to have a consistent pattern when it comes to blogging. At the very least I post on Monday, Wednesdays, and Fridays but if I have a LOT to say then it bumps up a little bit. I know that people who are active on social media are sometimes seen as influencers and most provide a lot of content, but I don’t feel I am an influencer as it seems to me that most infuencers are promoting a product with almost everything they post about.

And yes, I do review things from time to time or plug or promote a business, but when I do it’s an effort to help that business get some attention because I think that what they do is important and helpful to our community.

It’s also a way for me to thank someone for their help. The first episode of Wishlist is scheduled to be posted on Friday, and it wouldn’t have happened without the kindness of Christi. If I can help direct a few people her way as thanks, then I want to do so.

But I also think she’s amazing and I feel that anyone who meets with her will have the time of their life. I can’t recommend someone or something unless I believe in it.

Believe it or not, but there are businesses and products I choose not to talk about. There is a designer that has asked me multiple times to be their spokeswoman but I have gotten to the point where I just ignore them. I feel that their approach to working with others is aggressive and almost bullying, but I also feel that their products just aren’t for me. I also am asked on a regular basis to review, ah, intimacy devices, but again, not something I feel comfortable in doing.

Anyway, I don’t feel that I am publishing content, but I do want to post on a regular basis. Most of the time I have something to write about but some posts are more or less timed to coincide with something I’ve written for another website or for a Help Me, Hannah! segment.

I do think about what I will write about in the coming week. For example, unless something happens, this upcoming Monday’s post will be about this weekend’s MN T-Girl event. Wednesday’s post will more than likely be about my upcoming visit to Underdare.

But today? I have nothing planned. There is a collaboration that I am waiting to be allowed to announce and the first episode of Wishlist was planned to go live today but now will be Friday. So I woke up this morning without really anything to chat about. I have a few posts that I’ve started that I am working on but they aren’t quite ready yet.

I don’t want to post for the sake of posting, but again, I do want to post on a regular basis. So… that’s what today’s post is all about. Writing about how I have nothing to write about is pretty stupid, I admit, and in a way this IS posting for the sake of posting.

I do think it’s important to be self-aware and to acknowledge what you are doing and how it may come off or interpreted, such as talking about you have nothing to talk about but then continuing to talk about nothing for 900 words. Which is more or less what I am doing lol.

Between blogging and everything else I do, I am sometimes asked if I feel overwhelmed or pulled in too many directions. And I do feel overwhelmed and overstimulated at times. I do feel self conscious as well. But when I feel these things, it’s almost always because I don’t feel in control of a situation.

What I mean is that it seems to be a trend when you go into a restaurant and the music is loud, almost aggressively so. It’s distracting and stimulating but the aspect that bothers me the most is that I can’t DO anything about it. I mean, yes, I could leave but it’s not easy to do halfway through your lunch.

I feel I can handle a lot of stress and a lot of pressure and expectations if I feel that the situation is 100% my choice.

Almost every aspect of Hannah’s life are my decision. Whether it’s blogging or organizing a MN T-Girl event or preparing the next episode of Wishlist, these are things I am CHOOSING to do. I do not feel obligated or I have a responsibility to do so… not in the same way I feel obligated to go to work or responsible for the mortgage.

There is a freedom knowing that if there’s something that Hannah does is something I could just… stop doing. I could (but won’t) abdicate leading the MN T-Girls. I could stop partnering with the people I partner with. But I won’t. This COULD be my last blog post EVER. But it won’t be.

These elements are work, these elements take time and energy but they are my choices. Since I feel that they are my decisions, they do not (usually) stress me out.

Instead, they feel rewarding and fulfilling. I am fortunate to do what I do. And I don’t want to take that for granted. While I know I could walk away from anything I do, I also know that much of what I do is because of you all.

I get emails that tell me they heard of my website from someone who reads my websites. I am invited to do things because a local makeup artist recommended me to someone they know. I am asked to review products because I am active on social media.

None of this happens without you. I appreciate comments and emails and criticisms.

Thank you for your support and feedback. I hope to be worthy of your time.

Love, Hannah