There have been so many moments where I have felt… what I do is trivial. Perhaps almost inappropriate.
As world events unfold and I see history happening, writing about what I write about feels a little tone-deaf. Like, why am I writing about lingerie when (insert current event) is happening?
It’s impossible to not feel something when something is happening. Yesterday I woke up feeling exhausted and frustrated and I began to compose something to break up the Ask Hannah posts that I’ve been doing over the last few days.
I meant to write about comfort. Not necessarily comfort in the sense that flats are much more comfy than 4 inch stilettos (that’s not why 4 inch stilettos were invented), but what we turn to when the world feels dark. The thing that unites our community, regardless of anything else, is that we have a side of us that needs to be taken care of.
When I sat down to write I meant to talk about how there’s a favorite nightgown I wear when the day was a little rough. A pair of panties that I wear when I know it’s going to be a long day. A dress I wear when I am feeling too…. male and I want to feel cute. I wanted to know what you turn to when the day is not going how we had hoped it would.
But it went out the window. As I typed I let my frustration and sadness of current events overwhelm me. I believe in what I said but after sleeping on it I have decided that it’s not what my website is about.
I want to create an inviting space for all of us. And what unites us? Makeup. Lingerie. Heels. Dresses. The longing to belong.
I have taken the post down as I don’t think it contributed to anything helpful. I still stand by my feelings but I regret the harshness of it. I regret and apologize for turning anyone off.
Even if you agree with me, that’s not why you visit my site. I’m sorry for letting those opinions and feelings take over. I am honored and privileged to do what I do and I recognize that this side of us is a refuge from the world sometimes. It’s ironic that I meant to write about what we turn to when the world isn’t cooperating and ended up writing about the very thing many of us want to take a break from.
I want to thank you for your emails and comments of support, but also your honesty. Some of you agreed with me, some of you didn’t, but the ones that were the most helpful and enlightening were the messages simply stating that you come to my site not for current events (that have nothing to do with being trans) but for what I normally post about. I appreciate and agree with your perspective and I thank you for that.
Tomorrow we return to our regularly scheduled program.