Ask Hannah!

 I was wondering if you ever came across a person that struggled with their CD life and something that is very personal to people and their faith. I am a person that has struggled with this conflict within myself. I deeply desire to live as a CD and maybe even Trans, but I also have this faith that I have grown up with that tells me that what I am doing is wrong. Have you talked with anyone else with problems like this? 

I was raised Catholic and up until I was in my final days of high school I spent every Sunday in church.  I was told how EVERYTHING you did, thought, and said mattered to God.  Everything was being used to determine whether or not I would go to heaven or, uh, somewhere else when I died.  If everything I did was noticed, then I’m sure God saw me trying on my sister’s clothes and knew I was longing at the dresses I saw girls wore.  I’m sure what I was wearing (or wanting to wear) would be considered when it came to my afterlife.  Of course confession is used to absolve those “sins” but I certainly was not going to tell the priest about what I tried on in secret.

God created the heavens and the earth and everything in the universe, we were told.  God loves us.  These were some of the things we were taught every single day growing up.  It’s natural to question one’s faith, and for me I wondered if God was as powerful and as loving as we were told, did it really matter that I wore panties?  Did God REALLY care?  And if this was “wrong”, why was it wrong?  Did the Bible say it was?  I mean, they are just clothes, for heaven’s sake.  My relationship with God has nothing to do with religion.  I don’t base any of my life on what the Bible or the Vatican or whatever says.  

Religion, faith, gender…  these are all very personal things and you shouldn’t let anyone tell you what is right and what is wrong (even me).  

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8 thoughts on “Ask Hannah!

  1. Deuteronomy 22:5 deals with the issue cross-dressing / transvestism (men dressing in women’s clothing and vice versa). In this passage God commands that a woman is not to wear that which pertains to a man and a man is not to wear that which pertains to a woman, for all that do so are an “abomination. While I don’t think like this it does seem to outline God’s take on CDs.


    1. If you study the context for which this was written your perspective would change. This verse seems black and white but it was directed at the Israelites who had just come from a pagan land with pagan rituals so from that this was written into the Jewish laws


  2. I have a lot of trouble believing that an entity who is capable of creating the universe as we see it, defining all the petty details that determine how it and all its diverse creatures function, would get in a snit because from time to time it makes me feel good to dress en femme.


  3. People of faith really need to separate belief in God from belief in religion. They are mutually exclusive.

    Like Hannah, I was raised Catholic and told all of this stuff while a Catholic priest was busy using me as a sex toy. I didn’t remember any of this until about 4 years ago. I have spent a ton of time in therapy. Sorry about being so blunt, but this question hit a nerve for me.

    I started out hating the very thought of God even though I didn’t exactly know why. I just knew that being in church and listening to this was causing several consternation in me. I stopped going to church as soon as I was old enough to make that decision for myself. I truly believe in a higher power, but I refuse to believe that a higher power would care about such trivial things. He/she would want you to be good to others and happy. I have a relationship with God without the baggage of organized religion.

    Man created religion, IMO, as a way to control other men by creating a rule book that somehow benefits the ones in charge. Every culture has their own adjusted rule book that shares many things but differs where they need it to differ. If you look at all of the wars and horrible things than men do, you will find a huge religious component in each one. Take the current political climate. What some In the “Christian party (GOP)” would do goes so far against what a benevolent God would want it amazes me. They violate their own rules just to keep others from doing something that they don’t believe in. “What you do to the least of my brothers, you do to me.” The way they treat the least of their brothers, let alone anyone who isn’t white and affluent is horrendous. If there is a hell, there are a lot of “Christians” including the priest who hurt me repeatedly that are in for a very rude awakening.

    So I guess what I am saying is that you should be who you are and live your best life. Religion might have a problem with it, but God will not. He created you and me and everyone to be who and what we are.


  4. I’ve struggled with my faith and gender for many years but a few years ago I felt God said it’s not how you look or wear but what is in your heart
    Do you love others and treat others with love and compassion then truly this is the essence of a Christian and how God wants us to be


  5. Camille said it best concerning organized religion and the role they play in peoples lives. Encouraging to read others posting the same perspective I have, and appreciate the progressive tone and content. As a baptized Catholic I’m thankfull for the parochial training of critical thinking.I received. To each it’s own but keep the faith baby.


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