I have a deep and emotional connection to clothes. And yes! That is a little shallow, but let me elaborate. The cute purple bodycon dress hanging in my closet? The one I haven’t worn in years? I wore it the first time I went out en femme. The beautiful, floor-length gown that I’ve only worn a few times? It was a gift from my wife. My go-to bra? Whenever I wear it I think about my first lingerie photo shoot. Panties keep me connected to Hannah’s life when I am in boy mode.
I can remember what I wore on most of the significant moments in Hannah’s life. The dress I wore at my first Pride festival. The skirt I wore the first time I went to a mall. I have dresses I am saving for certain occasions, whether it is a gala or simply going out to brunch.
When the pandemic started and I wasn’t going out as much, I bought a dress that I never thought I would have the courage to wear as the straps were quite thin and I felt they showed off my shoulders in a more masculine way than I was comfortable with. But not being able to go out was a reminder that life was short and I needed to do what I wanted while there was still time. I bought the dress, I wore the dress, and it will always represent that there may be a time when I am unable to do what I want and I should live and wear what I choose… without regrets.
Over the last two years, I’ve mostly avoided occasions where large amounts of people gathered, whether it was going to movie or a party. In my boy life, I am not much of a party goer. I like a quiet life. But Hannah is a different story. She’s not much of a partier but goodness does she like dressing up and socializing. Although lockdowns and social distancing prevented her from parties, I never slowed down adding to her wardrobe and buying dresses for a rainy day… or to put it more accurately, buying dresses for a future event.
Some dresses would be saved for a summer day, or an afternoon at the mall when it would be safer to be among a lot of other people. Some dresses were for future, unplanned parties. I would often add a dress to my wardrobe and have a small pang of sadness knowing that I have a perfect dress for a certain occasion, but the occasion couldn’t be planned at the moment. It was a reminder of how much of our lives had changed. So much of our lives were on hold.
I recently added a dress to my wardrobe that is perfect for a party, a party that can’t be planned quite yet, and it symbolizes that better days are coming. Our world, our lives are slowing returning to “normal”. Over the last two years it would often feel that brighter days were so, so far away. But now more than ever, hope is there. The sun will comes out tomorrow, if you will.
Many of my outfits are reminders of past days, previous adventures, significant milestones in my life. This dress, at the risk of sounding over-dramatic, is a reminder that parties, our lives will return.
Please know that I am not trying to gloss over how traumatic and devastating the last the last two years have been, or disregard anyone who is still impacted by the pandemic. We are all, on some level, traumatized by it. We are still, and will be for a long time, impacted by COVID.
Thinking about what I will wear to a party seems shallow in retrospect. But what keeps us going is fantasizing that better days are ahead. Hope keeps me from staying in bed all day. Adding a dress for a day that we dream of coming is the most optimistic thing I can do.
Goodness this is deep for a post about a dress, isn’t it? 🙂
As I looked through the outfits that I would be reviewing for En Femme, I started to think about what event, which occasion each item would be perfect for. The last dress I posted about would be perfect for the office. But this week’s dress? Perfect for the party that is coming, the party that although isn’t on the calendar quite yet, but feels closer than ever.
So, yes, this dress gave me a little hope. Optimism that the things that I previously took for granted, such as dressing up for a night with my friends, are slowing returning.
This week’s dress is En Femme’s Classic Short Sleeve Skater Dress.
This dress has an illusion neckline. I love the subtle and sexy see-though that mesh delivers. The dress is short! And I love a short skirt. As a t-girl I used to be self-conscious of my tallness, but I have really come to embrace my height. A tall girl means long legs, and goodness I work hard to keep my legs in shape.
Embracing my long legs was one thing. My shoulders? I still struggle. The last few years I have gotten more secure with them but I still have moments when I feel my arms and frame are too masculine. A dress with sleeves can really make or break how I feel about an outfit. One thing I absolutely appreciate about En Femme’s clothes is that they are designed for my body. If a dress has long sleeves, they are long enough for my arms. If the sleeves are capped, such as on this dress, they are designed to fall where they should. It creates a flattering effect. I love small, subtle details in my clothes. This can be a lacey pattern on my panties, or in this case sleeves that are perfect for my body.
Not only is the skirt complimentary to my legs, it has a nice feminine swish to it. When I stand it falls as it should, but when I sit it drapes itself on my body. And I love that.
As I mentioned, I love subtlety in my clothes. I love a tiny flash of my stockings when I walk. The skirt is short but if I need to be more modest I can do so.
Red is a bold color and goodness you have to be comfortable with drawing attention if you are going to wear it. Keep in mind that I am not saying I am cute by any means, but red will turn heads no matter what. When I selected my heels for this outfit I almost went with red stilettos, but to me the dress is a party dress, so I chose really sparkly heels.
I think red heels and this dress MIGHT be too matchy-matchy for my taste. I also considered really strappy, black stilettos but how often do we have a chance to wear glittery shoes? Not often enough.
I love this dress. I love how it fits, I love how it feels. I love how it made ME feel. The dress inspires daydreams of fancy parties, dressing to the nines, and a part of my life that I miss.
Life is short. Buy the dress. Whether it’s a dress for a day running errands or a cocktail party.
You can add this to your wardrobe and take advantage of a one time discount of 15% off your next purchase by using the code HANNAH15 at checkout.